well what an emotional roller coaster I've had since i last posted. I was off to the docs to get my results which he had given me the impression after my op, would be ok.
Unfortunately they werent so good, My right fallopian tube needs to be removed as it is severly damaged by the endometriosis, my left one was adhered to my bowel and he removed the adhesions. I had a big endometriosis spot on my right ovary which he removed and he also took out a polyp from my uterus and I had a small fibroid. phewww that took a bit of writing.
The long and the short of it is another op to take out my right tube and hopefully the pain will improve. I also have to decide pretty quickly about children ,as I'm 36 and my bits are deteriorating quickly. I would have to travel to NSW to have artificial insemmination, as they dont do it here in Vic.
then on Saurday whilst I was in my home town for a wedding, I spied my mum and dad at the same function area (havent spoken to my dad for 7 years), and took the plunge and confronted him about how enough time had gone by and how we should be able to move on and be in the same place at the same time for the rest of the family blah blah blah cry cry cry,,,
the up shot is he asked me to come home to talk about it and i did on the Monday, it was pretty scarey , my dad is not an easy man to get along with and I was frightened of what he might say. But he said I could come and see mum whenever I am at home ,at their house.
I still cant believe it really happened . It is only the first step ,but was always going to be the hardest. I told him the hardest part for me was thinking he didnt love me enough to want to try and get over the problem that we had, and he said he did love me.
That was my greatest fear,that he would say he didnt love me and to go away. He didnt, and who knows maybe my family will be able to have a christmas together again one day..
so, I'm also back to work today after 3 weeks off, and have lots of things running through my head, babies , parents and operations.
I did eat a bit over the weekend ,but I'm hoping that now I'm back at work I can swing back into my healthy routine.
I'm off for a walk now to start..
Thanks for reading my rant guys..