I am so bad at keeping this updated.
Right. I've finally lost a small amount of weight recently- scale this morning said 82.2, so that was good. I went on holidays for a week and half in January and so my exercise and eating and everything was a bit hopeless, my weight up past 84.
I seem to have finally gotten some exercise stuff under control- bought a new bike helmet, am going bike riding with my brother twice a week. Started back swimming yesterday, which I'd forgotten I loved, even though 50m of freestyle almost killed me! Regardless, I did 1/2 hour, and during uni semester I'm going to be going to the pool once a week with a friend and hopefully once by myself as well. I also started yoga again, which is wonderful for my back problems. So the exercise plan is running x2, bike x2, swimming x2, and yoga on the other day. I have a treadmill and exercise bike in case it's raining or whatever. I've really made an effort in organising my work timetable for the year to make sure I have time to do this stuff. I enjoy th
ose types of exercise and also that they get my outside.
I also have stopped keeping a meticulous record of calories. I think that in general, I have a good idea of how many calories are in things anyway, from losing weight once before and from eating disorder stuff. I'm just trying to make a lot more sensible choices, and limiting the sweet stuff, but not beating myself up if my friends want to go out for Thai or mexican or whatever. Also making sure I eat breakfast, and trying to drink more water. I feel like this way, even though it is harder at the beginning, will be better for me, because with calorie counting I say, ok, well I can have this chocolate bar if I don't eat these couple of pieces of fruit, or whatever other silly thing I think up. This way I'm trying to change my whole way of eating so that when I have sweets they're much more enjoyable and like a treat. The binge eating is getting better slowly, although I still want to eat everything all the time, haha! But I guess it's retraining everything that I've been doing for a long time.
So overall, positive progress I guess. I'm really just trying to focus on more exercise to be more fit, and healthier eating, and letting whatever weight loss comes, to come. Instead of just focusing on the number on the scale, which I think is what I have always done.