Well I have been busy with work/gym/social life lately so haven't been on the board much. Loving life atm - have started poledancing lessons and am hopefully going to try cross-fit soon! Loving trying new things!
Weighed in at 62.4kg this morning.. I've generally been maintaining about 62-63kg.
The past few weeks I've been listening to my body a lot more rather than eating out of habit, and I'm feeling a lot more in control and better about myself. Have also been doing some self help therapy to work on my eating issues - a lot of reflection, observing my thought and behaviour patterns, self esteem work etc. I did consider speaking to a counsellor but at this stage I'm feeling good and like I'm finally getting better on my own, but it's definitely something I'll consider.
I think what the main barrier holding me back from letting go of these issues were that they fuelled themselves - if I begun to let go of the issues, I would get scared of gaining weight, and therefore I didn't want to let go of them... but the fear of gaining weight was caused by them in the first place... if that makes sense??? Anyway, sometimes I still feel anxious if I've eaten something 'wrong' or too much but now I am aware of the anxiety and I can just observe it.
I don't ever want an unhealthy lifestyle back, but I want to be able to enjoy food and not have anxieties about it. Just treat it as a part of life to be enjoyed. That's my aim.
Hope everyone else is going great xxx
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