Oh. My. God.
I just typed out this massive reply to you, and then accidentally deleted it... gotta hate technology sometimes!
Let me start again:
Hi Ruby, and welcome to the forums! Congratulations on losing 10kgs already, that's a fantastic effort! I really related to your story, because I too am a "camera dodger". I used to hate having my photo taken before, and I always used to hide/offer to take the photos instead of having to look at pictures of exactly how big I was. I hated not being able to feel confident enough to have my photos taken with my friends.
You mentioned that you've got a new eating and exercise plan off the internet - where abouts did you find that? Have you also seen the calorie king website yet? (http://www.calorieking.com.au
) It's really helpful and informative - if you type in your details, it tells you how many calories you're allowed per day, and the nutritional breakdown of a whole range of common foods/drinks.
I felt so bad for you when you talked about not having the confidence to be in photos with your daughter - I don't have children but I can imagine exactly how you feel, especially when you talked about not being able to get those moments back. I think you should just take some anyway, you could always use those photos for discussion later on in life when your daughter is older. E.g. "It's important to eat healthy foods, so your body grows up healthy and strong. Mummy used to eat unhealthy foods and she was much bigger then" etc.
You can do this Ruby, and I'm sure you'll be a sexy fox if you work hard
I was 115kgs at my heaviest, and I really think it's just about persistence. Put bad days behind you, and try and keep your motivation levels up. One bad day won't destroy everything, so if you slip up, make sure you get back on track and just try to eat as well as you can the majority of the time. Allow yourself treats here and there - if you go for an all or nothing approach, it'll probably just result in bingeing (if you're anything like me!). Exercise makes a big difference too, so try and do that as much as you can. I was slack with exercising towards the end of last year, and I noticed that my results REALLY slowed down. I've started exercising more regularly again, and already I can feel and notice the difference.
All the best