Awww you poor bugger...what a brave thing to do, to come in here and be hoest about all that - that's a huge step and I have no doubt you will go on to lose that gain, plus more.
To make you feel better, I will tell you about what I did yesterday. I must have been absolutely off my head but I have been following masterchef and last week they did mini jam donuts from a sweet batter. Yesterday I decided to make these. I don't know why but my husband thought his ship had come in (as he is constantly bemoaning the fact that since I have started a weight loss program, HE is starving
) Anywayyy..I made them, and I had one striaght out of the fryer, it was hot and covered in cinammon sugar. It was heaven. Then I proceeded to eat about 8 more of them, all in all I would say I hate about the equivalent of 6 full size jam donuts. I just couldn't stop, had a crazy afternoon..my husbad had a couple and then I finally ate the last two. Then, I felt sick. I mean, really sick. I had a hard knot in my upper stomach and I knew I was going to be sick. I threw up for almost an hour. I put it down to my body just not ebing used to that much fat/sugar anymore but man, was I ever sick and grossed out by myself and the donuts.
BUT, today I can laugh about it. I got up this morning, put it behind me and got back on track. I had a good healthy day and I could feel my digestive system thanking me for not abusing it anymore. It was a blip in the grand scheme of things, but you CAN'T let these things ruin all of the hard work you have put in.
Get back on track, no matter how hard it seems, and you will get there.