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Postby yellowroses » Sun May 16, 2010 10:35 pm

Hi everyone!

Yep, I'm back. Starting afresh with a new thread. This is my final attempt at this!! I've quit weight watchers, and I'm just going back to regular old counting calories :) I'm on 1700 calories a day, not including items that weight watchers classes as zero points such as non-starchy vegies, diet drinks, some condiments, herbs/spices and sugar substitutes.

Today was my first day. I weighed in at 125.4kg. My ultimate goal is 68kg, my goal for the year is to be 79.9kg by the 31st December 2010. Weigh ins will be on Saturday morning's still.

My basic goals for this journey are to take it slowly, not push myself too hard, and just keep going no matter what. I stopped for the last 3 months because I let my depression overcome me, and I hit rock bottom. I don't want to go back there, and although I know that losing this weight wont make me happy automatically, but honestly, it can only contribute to some kind of happiness and sense of wellbeing.

So today I had a total of 1550 calories. My day was:

Breakfast: Oats with apple and cinnamon.
Lunch: Baked beans with egg and slice of bread
Dinner: Pork loin, salad, potato and cooked apple.
Snacks: Yoghurt, muesli bar, vive lites, paddle pop, and tea/hot choc.

No exercise just yet. I'm studying like a madwoman for exams, and I'm leaving for Europe in 5 weeks, so things are a little crazy!

That's all for now. I'm tired but need to clean up my bedroom.
I'll be posting every day to keep myself accountable.

Lisa.
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Mon May 17, 2010 10:29 pm

Hey everyone!

Had a good day eatingwise, just loong otherwise. Lots of study!

My day eating wise was:

Breakfast: Oats with apple and skim milk for 361 calories
Lunch: Two slices of wholemeal bread with 30g of avocado, 2 slices of Kraft Singles (97% fat free), and tomato for 269 calories
Dinner: Chicken, noodle and vegetable soup for 468 calories
Snacks: Yoghurt, muesli bar, paddle pop, hot chocolate, and vive lites snack pack for 507 calories
Plus milk for tea for 43 calories

Total: 1648 calories

Pretty good. Had the munchies all day, but I think I'm eating decent snacks. The hot chocs have been an indulgence that I can't live without lately - they're at about 150 calories total, pretty much empty calories, but very worth it on cold days when PMS is hanging over your head :) Same with the vive lites snack pack... omg I would go nuts without them!

Ok, until tomorrow.
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby FatFukShrinking » Tue May 18, 2010 2:00 am

Hey Lisa!

I'm 116kg at the moment, i want to get as much weight off as i possibly can by the end of the year. You know what's good about losing weight at this time of year? We aren't close to Christmas and New Years! I always fall off the wagon at that time. I weigh in on Tuesdays. We should try and get some friendly competition happening, to keep ourselves motivated?

This is my last damn time at doing this. I have been yo-yo dieting for years and years. Losing 20 or 30 kilos, regaining. I never get to goal! I am going to get to goal this time. My ultimate goal would be to lose half of my weight. I started at 120kg, i want to weigh 60kgs.

Right now i'm just focused on getting to 99 kilos and out of the triple digits.

Regarding depression and losing weight, a million people will tell you that losing weight won't make you happy. I have to disagree depending on individual situations. For myself, i would be happier when i lose the weight... simply because i can't do what i want to do at this weight! It's limiting me and stopping me from being everything i want to be.

I would be happy to walk into any shop and know that there is always going to be something that fits me. Those little things would make me very happy. I would be happy to be able to dress up in clothes that i actually like... instead of trying to hide my lumps and bumps lol

Oh and of course i would be happy to know that i'm healthy, instead of worrying about if i will fall over and die of a heart attack at any moment! Hope you don't mind me interrupting your thread here.

:)FFS

BTW - I have also ditched all weight loss plans, i'm doing it completely my way this time.
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First Goal: 109 kilos (Losing 10% of my body weight)
Second Goal: 99 kilos (Getting out of triple digits)
Third goal: 85 kilos (Getting back to a weight where i felt more like ME)
Ultimate long term goal: 60 kilos (Losing half of my start weight)
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Tue May 18, 2010 10:36 pm

Heya ya'll,

Had an ok day. Could have done better, but I drank waaay too much hot chocolate coz I've got the 'lady time' goin' on. So today was:

Breakfast: Oats with cup of skim milk and 60g frozen strawberries for 287 calories
Lunch: Chicken, vege and rice noodle soup for 468 calories
Dinner: Curried rice with curried barramundi and corn, capsicum and onion for 399 calories
Snacks: Hot choc, paddle pop, pineapple, minties, and milk for 542 calories.

Total: 1696 calories

FFS, I'm happy for some friendly competition. PM me, and we can set up a thread in the 'Challenges' section.

I know what you mean about the depression and losing weight. So many people tell me "don't lose weight because you think that instantly you'll be happy and stuff", but I think my depression will deplete a fair amount when I start to exercise and also once I start to feel better about myself. My weight holds me back so much, and that makes me depressed - I'm too afraid to even apply for a job because once I get an interview I'm afraid that they'll reject me because of my size, and so I don't go to interviews! Also, I miss going out with my friends, and being able to go clothes shopping and seeing the rest of my family without feeling completely ashamed of the way I look. I went to book flights a few weeks ago to Europe, and wanted to go on a certain airline, but I found out that they're seats are 'slimline' with a width of 18 inches - no way my butt would fit in that!!! My hips are like 50 inches around!!! I'd be sooo squished on a 28 hour flight - NO WAY. Anyway, I'd love not to think about that stuff anymore - next time I go to Europe I wont have to!! In saying all that though, there are definitely things in my life that I need to sort through. I spent my whole life being told that I was too fat and ugly and that I needed to lose weight by my dad, along with many other things, and I think that's become a self-fulfilling prophecy that I hate how I look and that I've just started gaining more and more weight. I am going to counselling to work through all this stuff though, so don't stress I am not going to air all my baggage here. Maybe on my regular private blog, but not here...

Anyway, I have to be going.
Lisa.
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Thu May 20, 2010 12:22 am

Quickest post ever tonight because it's late and my back is sore because I fell over last night!

Today I woke up late this morning so I ended up a lot of calories under tonight.

Breakfast: Uncle Toby's Plus: Fibre Lift, with banana and a cup of milk for 398 calories
Lunch: 2 whole eggs, 2 slices of wholemeal bread, some Praise 97% fat free ranch dressing and some dry fried onion, capsicum and mushroom for 386 calories (and it was delicious!!)
Dinner: Curried barramundi with rice, avocado & salad vegies and some mayonnaise for 469 calories.
Snacks: Milk for teas, hot chocolate and a banana paddle pop for 249 calories

Total: 1502 calories.

I think tomorrow I'm going to allow myself the additional 198 calories with something a little indulgent, which I think is important! I also think that having a day or two throughout the week where you go a bit over your calories, a few days where you go a bit under and some days where you're pretty much spot on calorie-wise is a good way to 'diet', just because it's flexible, and I find flexibility better than rigidity. Just me. I did this when I was on WW as well, so I know that it works for me.

Anyway, we will discuss this further tomorrow.

Night,
Lisa.
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Final Goal: 68kgs.
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby Czarina » Thu May 20, 2010 12:21 pm

I agree, Yellowroses! I've got some calories leftover from yesterday, so I'm eating them today! Nothing wrong with that, it works for me.

I can relate to being told by your dad to lose weight, I've had that my whole life, too. Though now he is telling me not to lose any more weight or he'll start calling me 'Ana' (as in anorexic)...never thought I'd hear him say anything like that...

Anyway, depression can ease when you lose weight, in the respect that it makes you feel a lot more confident about yourself. It also makes you feel stronger, knowing that you can achieve what you set your mind to and do something really good for yourself. That's what I have found, anyway. :)
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby EvilWombatQueen » Thu May 20, 2010 1:18 pm

Welcome back, Lisa! Good luck with your weight loss. I'm looking forward to chatting with you here again! :D
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Thu May 20, 2010 11:38 pm

Hiya everyone!

Wowee I love the support on this forum :-)

EWQ - It's good to be back, and this time I'm really determined! How's everything been going with you?

Czarina - I think it's so wrong when parents tell their kids that they're too fat, it's absolutely horrible to hear that kind of criticism, especially if the don't set the best example, or give you information and support in order for you to accomplish weight loss goals. My dad said I was fat and ugly, and to this day, I still hear that ringing in my ears, and then I get angry because he never tried to help me lose weight, and he owned a bakery and would constantly bring home lots of fatty foods, and he would encourage me to eat terribly.

Anyway, so today I went 203 calories over my budget, which I'm happy with coz it's pretty much what I planned. My day consisted of:

Breakfast: Blueberry pancakes with butter and jam for 465 calories
Lunch: Chicken soup and 2 slices of wholemeal bread for 393 calories
Dinner: Tuna mornay for 302 calories
Snacks: Vive lites cookies (2 mini packs), grapefruit, paddle pop, hot chocolate, milk and yoghurt for 743 calories

Total: 1903 calories

I had difficulty getting there because I was on painkillers and dozed a lot. I went to the doctor this evening and she said I sprained my back when I fell down on Tuesday, and she told me that I should rest it for a few days.

Anyway, I must be off! Chat tomorrow night.

Lisa.
Goal for 2010: Be at most 99.9kg by 31st December 2010
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Final Goal: 68kgs.
http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/wcytIxC/
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Fri May 21, 2010 11:55 pm

Had another good day today - it's my weigh in tomorrow! Nervous and excited all at the same time!

Today was uninteresting. Just had lots of painkillers and dozed a fair amount.

Breakfast: Oats made with milk and blueberries for 293 calories
Lunch: Tuna with couscous and dijonnaise for 277 calories
Dinner: Baked beans with eggs on toast for 478 calories
Snacks: Banana, yoghurt, paddle pop, hot chocolate, milk, and vive lites cookies for 649 calories

Total: 1697 calories

I don't particularly have lots to talk about tonight. I will post in the morning as soon I have weighed in!

Night,
Lisa.
Goal for 2010: Be at most 99.9kg by 31st December 2010
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Final Goal: 68kgs.
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby EvilWombatQueen » Sat May 22, 2010 2:29 pm

Sorry to hear about your sprained back. I have constant back pain so I know how awful it is. It can really impact on your ability to do exercise.

In answer to your question: I've been ridiculously busy at uni. I'm near the end of my PhD so I'm madly trying to write up my thesis, which is why I don't post here as often as I used to. And why I'm currently at uni on a gloriously sunny Saturday reading academic papers on phenomenological psychology. :(

I regained a couple of kilos since we last spoke and I'm not expecting to lose any for the time being because I'm too busy to exercise. I'll be trying for a baby in the next few months so weight loss has taken a back seat to general health right now. Especially since I'll end up gaining weight anyway! It seems counterproductive to be desperately trying to get to my goal weight just before getting pregnant! :lol:
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Sat May 22, 2010 3:01 pm

EWQ - OMG!! YAY!! You guys are trying for a baby soon :) That's so exciting!!!!!! I understand about gaining weight while doing uni. I'm working towards my exams, and end of year assignments, and it seems like an uphill battle to study all day and still try to plan and cook healthy, when it seems so much easier to just grab that random bag of chips in the cupboard! But, like you've said in the past, it's a lifelong journey! I'm just hoping to get to a weight where I don't struggle like I do now - I feel that my life will be easier once I'm not battling my own body!

I weighed in this morning - I've lost 2.7kg! Bringing me down to 122.7kg. Hoping for some nice losses like that again in the next few weeks!

Will post again later tonight.

Lisa.
Goal for 2010: Be at most 99.9kg by 31st December 2010
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Final Goal: 68kgs.
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby nothing2lose » Sat May 22, 2010 3:50 pm

Hi Yellowroses,

Thanks for sharing your journey up here! I know how hard it is and I am with you all the way :)

Look forward to hearing more about your losses

take care

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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby curvygirl » Sat May 22, 2010 8:15 pm

Hello YellowRoses welcome back. Sorry for the delayed response but I have been living it up in Tassie for a week.
I am not going to go on and on about the depression thing but as a fellow sufferer I can tell you that loosing weight is as good for me as any medication. Dont get me wrong medication definately has its place but the weight loss is the cure. Keep at it and you will be fine. I would love to jump in on your challenge and good luck for a good number this week. :D
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Mon May 24, 2010 3:04 pm

Sorry I didn't post last night - by the time I finished everything that I needed to, it was nearly 11pm and I was pooped! This was my food day yesterday:


Breakfast: Cereal and blueberry yoghurt for 507 calories
Lunch: Chicken soup and 2 slices of wholemeal toast for 289 calories
Dinner: Lasagne and salad for (as a guesstimate) 495 calories
Snacks: Paddle pop and milk for tea for 195 calories

Total: 1536.

The lasagne for dinner was a little bit iffy. My husband made it, and it had a bit more pasta than usual, and he also uses ham as well as lean mince, so I left over 100 calories on the table so that I could be safe about it. Sometimes calorieking annoys me because I can't put in recipes and figure out how many calories is in each serving... or can I? Does anyone know if I can do that?????? That would be super dooper helpful...

Anyway, I must be off. I slept in VERY late today (I seriously just woke up!), and I've got so much to do. My back is feeling so much better this morning, just a little stiff.

Lisa.
Goal for 2010: Be at most 99.9kg by 31st December 2010
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Final Goal: 68kgs.
http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/wcytIxC/
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Re: Yellowroses' journey

Postby yellowroses » Tue May 25, 2010 11:15 am

Oh dear. Yesterday I had a blow out. I at nearly double my daily calorie allowance!!!

I analysed it, and I figure it was just anxiousness from study that got me started. I don't particularly know how to get around these moments when I have that little devil voice in my head saying "eat it Lisa, eat it, you know you want to. It will make you feeelll gooooood", and the little angel voice says very quietly in the back somewhere "no Lisa, losing weight will make you feel good! Don't eat it!"... why does devil voice win? My angel voice needs some awesome kung fu moves to kick devil voice's butt methinks... I need to find some methods to help me overcome these moments. Does anyone have any ideas?
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Final Goal: 68kgs.
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