Notice how I am not brave enough to show my face
Please feel free to watch my progress. I am not getting that much encouragement at home. Mind you it is early days yet. But I think after hearing me say so many times "this time I am really going to do it" my partner is not putting that much stock in it. He very much is a man of action rather than words. (I am all words, no action
) If I am honest with myself, deep down I really don't think I will do it this time - or any time ever! But what can I do? Say stuff it and eat what I want and get fatter and fatter and start getting really unhealthy and even more unattractive? Or dabble in it and hope it will stick? I have to choose the latter. I have no option
Sheesh... I should have put ****WARNING***RANT AHEAD**** before that little blurt!
Anyhoo, I had a small win this morning. And it was small, but I guess lots of small wins make a BIG one!
I woke up needing pancakes. I use the word "need" because that's what it was. I didnt want
pancakes, my body - no, my soul - ached
for them. I should explain here that i have an unnatural fondness for two things in this world - pancakes and donuts. The best profile name on any forum I ever saw (ie. the one I thought was me) was "Pancake Sl*t". I have passed this obsession down to my little girl, who did me proud a fortnight or so ago when she announced she wanted to go to the Pancake Parlour for her birthday dinner (ahhh....it brings a tear to my eye just remembering it *sighs*)
Sorry, getting off the track!.....Anyway....I needed pancakes. I have two things at my disposal - a Greens Pancake Shake Mix AND a very good, and well worn, recipe for banana pancakes. I also have an unopened bottle of Pancake Parlour maple syrup - courtesy of the birthday dinner trip. I leap out of bed (today's exercise done!) and rush to my recipe and check out the carb content. BUBOWWWW
Talk about carb loaded!
Mr Green and his trusty mix surely have to be better I tell myself, almost sprinting to the pantry. It's just powder stuff. All you add is water. How bad could it be?? NOOOOOOO! Bugger
I feel like Mr Green has personally reached out from his plastic bottle and slapped me on the face. I looked at the high fibre muesli sitting on the shelf next to the Greens Bottle'O'Carbs. I like this muesli. But it is not pancakes.
All I have left is google (one of my other great loves). It's surprising how many hits you get when you type in "Low Carb Pancakes". Who'd have thought? Turns out most of them have almond meal as the main ingredient. Which is code for high fat. I only spent another hour or so scouring the internet for alternatives. My stomach growling the whole time. In the end I did what any other pancake-loving, low carb dieting woman would do....I had a small bowl of porridge.
So a win. A small one, but a win, nevertheless. Made a little sweeter by the fact the scales say I am two kilos lighter than when I started on Monday.
On the downside I kind of half heartedly said I might take my little one to the pool this morning and do acqua aerobics. It was at 10.15 and right now, as I sit here typing in my dressing gown and sipping my coffee, there are lots of committed women bobbing up and down the pool without me! I told myself it is too cold and we are recovering from colds (which it is, and we are) but the real reason is I hate exercise and I don't want to do it. I WILL go for a walk later though...promise
That's all for now