Third Weigh In
Okay. Week three, and the past couple of days have been crap.
My first mistake was catching up with a friend for lunch on Thursday. I went to Stephanie Alexander's restuarant in Melbourne. There werent that many options that fit with my eating plan. But, to be honest, I kind of almost didnt care. I wanted an excuse not to stick to my plan. So I had a steak sandwich and polenta fries. YUMMY!! The only good thing was that being a pricier type of place the serves were small. My only win was my friend had dessert and I passed. That wasnt easy because they sounded divine
It fell apart from there. Friday I had to take my little girl to the city for an appointment. I found myself at the Vic Market and, having had no breakfast (and a big, fat donut sl*t), said yes to her when she asked if we could get some hot jam donuts from one of those mobile vans. We got six. I ate three.
From there it was a ricotta and spinach roll for lunch. And then homemade pizza for tea.
The irony of all this is, after being stuck on 108.2kg for two weeks, I weighed myself on Friday morning and I was 107.3kg. But instead of being encouraged, I sabotaged myself and started back to my old ways.
Saturday came and I thought I would get back on the horse. My good (but apparently, weak) intentions were ruined (or so I told myself) by the fact the milk was off. Which meant no cereal and no coffee. I was okay with the no cereal bit. I had a couple of pieces of cape seed toast with vegemite but I wanted that coffee. Sure, I could have got off my fat arse and gone to the shop and got milk but it seemed so much easier to use ice-cream as a whitener. I am pathetic. And the coffee didnt even taste that good.
Following my mantra - you may as well be hung for a sheep as a lamb, I had leftover pizza for lunch, then chicken and prawn steamed wontons for dinner (as well as a few fried ones).
In short, I have well and truly FELL OFF THE WAGON
I got on the scales this morning....108.1kg. A weight loss of 100gms.
To top it off I am in hormone hell. My face is full of pimples. My legs are aching with fluid retention. I am being a censored to everyone who dares look at me and I feel like crap. I wish my period would come.
I guess I have a choice. Throw it away or start again.
Can any of you successful weightlosers out there tell me where there days you felt like this? What did you do to re-focus? How do you lose a lot of weight (ie over 20-30kgs) without going backwards? I really want to know. I feel like I will never do it because I am too weak and pathetic. I have great short term willpower but long term??... Forget it!
To top it off, apparently I am a whiny whinger too. Sorry (if anyone is still reading this!)
I just feel crappy and I wanted/needed to vent.
Hope you are all doing better than me