I guess I should open with a few stats:
Starting weight: 80.5kg
Current weight: 77.7kg
Goal weight: 72kg
Ultimate goal weight: 70kg
My weight when I was super lean/sexy: 68kg
My shrinking journey began, officially, one month ago. This is not the start of my weightloss endeavours though – oh no. I have tried and failed countless times, to the point where I just began to honestly believe that I was incapable of losing weight, and that was that.
The weight came on slowly. I think over the course of about 2 years, the weight just crept on bit by agonizing bit, until hey presto! 10kg heavier than I used to be, with wobbly thighs and a thick waist to boot. My size 11 jeans would just hang in my closet and mock me, and I’d avoid their judgmental gaze every time I’d grab a pair of leggings or a loose skirt to sling around me instead. I think half the shock was that I couldn’t justify how I’d put on weight – I never saw myself as one of those people. Well, none of us are immune! I think a few too many late night treats and large serves of pasta over the years, just slowly overcame my fast metabolism and athletic body, and gave it a bit of an almighty F-YOU!!
My weekly weigh-ins will be on Tuesdays, but a confession – I am a daily weigh-er. I have come to terms with daily fluctuations now, so it is of benefit to me. It is a great motivator, and half the reason I’ve failed in the past I attribute to not having a scale in the house. I think I just assumed scales were a bad obsession, and to just eat right and keep an eye on how my clothes were feeling on my body. Well, that didn’t work! I am notoriously impatient, and this is one of my biggest obstacles. So all that said, you’ll likely here a lot about my daily weight.
A little insight into my approach to weight-loss. I think my success so far is because I don’t see it as a diet any more. Wacky food combinations are just too hard to stick to for me, and I’m a skeptical person. I know low-carb is successful, but this also isn’t for me. My approach has been a life-style change instead. I closely monitor what I eat, with an online site similar to CalorieKing. I am becoming adept at estimating my caloric intake, so one day when I realistically won’t be counting calories online, I will be equipped with the estimating power to know when enough is enough. My goal intake is 1,400 net calories daily, which will reduce a little as I reduce in weight. I eat back my exercise calories. I need the energy – I am not petite, I am athletically built. I love experimenting with different food combinations to get the most bang for calorie. I exercise 4 days a week, mainly martial arts and power-walking at work. I drink lots of green tea.
This morning I was 77.7kg. The lowest I’ve been this week so far is 77.3kg. I always told myself that when I hit the 77’s, I’d finally admit to myself that YES, this IS working!! I’m still dubious, but that’s just me I suppose
Sometimes, we can be our own worst enemy.