Today I start my new lifestyle.
I set the date before I really knew what I was doing. At the time I only knew a few things.1)
I do the exact opposite of what other people tell me to do, unless it’s me telling me to do it and then I’m really driven. Go figure.2)
I might have PCOS. I flipped out. I have epilepsy and Bipolar Disorder, I can handle those. Not knowing if I would be able to live my dream of having a miniature version of my man? I couldn’t take it. (I now know that I don’t have PCOS, and that you can in most cases still have children when you have PCOS).3)
I was sick of being overweight.
So having recently quit smoking, I thought maybe if I apply the same tools that I could lose weight.
So I set a date. The 1st of may, allowing my mind to get used to the idea.
I started calculating how many kilojoules per day I was eating. At 18,000kJ that first day I was definitely surprised lol. So the next day it went down, and down again the day after that. I learnt what food was really bad for me.
I still ate what I wanted though, sticking to that date, having that line, is something I need to organize it in my head.
I had my last takeaway, Pizza. (I felt like crap afterwards though!)
I had my last carb loaded home cooked meal, Spaghetti Bolognaise.
I went to a shoe shop and had my feet properly fitted for a set of runners. Then I spent a fortune and bought them. They are very comfortable though. And bouncy. They make me feel like going for a walk. My fiancé says that they should shoot fireworks lol but so as long as I get the use out of them I’ll be happy with the amount I spent
I also spent the time in a semi-productive way, creating 5,500kJ (I worked out that my BMR was 8k so if I’m below this I should drop the kilos, but it’s not rigid if I need to alter it I will) food plans and an excel spreadsheet that marks every 100g lost from where I am now 119.1kg to 60kg. Yes it took ages. Was I super bored when I started it? Of course I was.
But I can’t wait to mark of that 100g per week. And the more I lose the more I get to mark off
I’m so psyched. It’s like I’ve looked back at my life and just planted my foot and refused to continue the way I was going. I have made a decision. I am adamant and driven. It feels great because I already know I can do it.
I’ve entered into the May challenge. I don’t rightly know what it is but I’m happy to just be with people who want to lose weight so we can egg each other on
It’s going to be great!
I’m doing water aerobics with a few friends and we’re all joining the gym (last time I was at the gym I was a total junkie until I broke my ankle so I can’t wait to get back into it
). I’m also walking with my fiancé at night which is more leisurely and enjoyable.
I have my “cheat time” set out – the 27th, 28th and 29th of May are my *I can do whatever I want* days. My Birthday is on the 25th and that weekend is gonna be a big one because it’s my 25th and I’m having a party and going out for Japanese Teppanyaki (a place I’ve been promising myself to go since before my 21st). So that’s my cheat time. I’m happy with that.
If I really need to have something different during the next month I have cashews. And for DIRE emergencies 10g lots of 70% cocoa chocolate. My aim however is to reach the 31st of May completely sugar free (and by that I mean lollies chocolate etc, not natural sugars)
I have a few worries, which I am not ashamed to admit.
I am Epileptic and my medication makes you retain weight and feel hungrier than normal. I am hoping that as I only eat once a day normally, then this will help me to be able to get used to eating regular meals.
Whilst my Bipolar Disorder is somewhat controlled with a strong sedative I often use chocolate and/or caffeine to temper mood swings. I’m hoping maybe I’ll find more stability when I’ve been of them for a while (im on decaf now!).
So minor worries, but worries none the less. At the same time I have to get blood tests done more often to make sure my drugs are at the right levels. Woo more pin jabs….That nurse is NOT gentle! >.< Bah, anyways at least I have a regular doctor I’ll be seeing
Despite the worries I’m excited! I am looking forward to meeting the new me
So this is my first post and probably my longest but I’m just that excited about finally doing something about my weight.