Yesterday was a really hard one and sometimes living opposite a service station full of chocolate delights doesnt help! I didnt cave but im so close to it.
My daughter is staying at her nans for a week and rung me absoltuely hysterical just to tell me she hates me, which put me in a great mood, then I had a huge argument with my Mother and then we get the call that my fiance no longer has a job!
The job ofcourse is the one that tips me over the edge as it means we are in real trouble as Im outta work too.
My luxury weightloss weapon of the Gym is now not realistic and its just like getting a punch in the guts. Being sooo big i really need my one session a week with my trainer to keep me going.... I guess now im going to have to find something else to keep me going.
Although I know i should be worried about bills and sensible stuff which i am, the thing that has really upset me is that we are now having to cancel our Engagement party... it may seem really shallow but i hadnt told many people i was dieting and have bought a beautiful outfit to wear and wanted to suprise everyone, i was hoping by the time the party came round i would of lost 20kg so it would start showing alot more. It kinda gave me a little mini motivation before reaching the big goal!
Im so determine not to give up but right now im so stressed out im really struggling, has anyone had those days were you just want to give up? How did you ignore that inner feeling of damn its just too hard!
Sorry its so miserable today, I will be fine tomorrow, today i am happy to sulk though!