still plodding along. Running is going well, it seems like every run it gets easier so thats good, some are easier then others. I have been thinking more and more about weightloss. I have a friend who has lost 40kgs and he looks amazing compared to before, however his personality has suffered somewhat, he has become quite up himself and if someone who didnt know he previously was very big, they would look at him and see an overweight person as he still has a way to go. Its just a shame as his personality before and attitude towards life was so much different. I dont think mine has changed all that much. I still view myself as huge though haha.
My sister has decided she is going to get lap band surgery, she got all the information over a year ago and had finally decided thats what she wants to do. I will support her in her endeavors however i still think that it is most certainly possible to lose weight without undergoing surgery or taking potentially harmful drugs, i do though remember before i had my hypnotherapy feeling so useless and unable to control myself, but i have learnt to do that. I just think if i were to have surgery that wasnt 100% required i would want to make sure i had done everything in my power beforehand to try.
something that is quite interesting is i lost the first 20 kilos by cutting carbs and eating more protein and it was great i was never hungry and i felt good mostly, then something changed, i became tired and hungry all the time and stopped losing weight, now that i have added carbs (wholegrain and starchy fruit and vegetables) back into my diet i am no longer starving, i feel satisfied with the amount of food i am eating, i dont feel obsessed with diet and the most important thing is i have started shifting weight again. I dont understand what my body is doing but as long as it keeps getting thinner i am happy for it to take me along for the ride.
I have had a really hard week with something absolutely unimaginable happening in my household and i am currently in the aftermath of that, so some "convenience" meals have been had this week, but i am not being weighed for another week and a half so i still have plenty of time to undo any damage that may have been done, hopefully everything calms done soon.