Since Scott put this section in I have been using excuse after excuse not to start this diary. If I don't see it written down I can avoid the issue of my weight.
I have been overweight all my life but in the last 10 years it has really got out of control. I have tried so many "diets" and had the best success with SureSlim, I lost almost 30kg. Sadly I have put a lot of that back on.
We run our own business from home which is a 24/7 job, there are no holidays together as some one has to always be here. Our busy times is always over Christmas and New Years so we are usually to exhausted to enjoy either. I think in the last few years I have begun to get depressed as we always put in the hard work and time for very little rewards. As we are getting older it is taking so much more out of us but DH is not yet ready to give up.
I do feel that a lot of time I resent the situation we are now in and turn to food for comfort.
I also have a son with mental problems now because of drugs, he has been in a mental hospital twice in the the last 7 years and I do so worry about him. I know at 32 he is responible for his own actions but you are a parent for life not just to a certain age. I know for my own sanity I have to take a step back and just pray he doesn't go of the rails again but it is so hard.
So I am now going to keep this diary to try and put my feelings down here instead of going to the fridge/pantry. That is going to be hard as I am not one to be so open with my feelings / thoughts.
I got on the scales this morning first time in about 3 weeks, was happy to see that I had not put anything on in that time but didn't loose any either.
When I started SureSlim nearly 2 years ago my starting weight was 136.5kg this morning it was 125kg, I will weigh myself every week and write it down in here wether it is a loss or not.
My first goal is to loose 5 kg before I have a weeks holiday at the end of March.
Second goal will be to loose another 10kg before my 50th in June.
Sorry for such a long post but I had to face up to everything and I do so need everyone's support.