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Postby MickeyB » Mon May 21, 2007 12:06 pm

Hi,

I'm new to the site, but going to try very hard to get things back on track. Here is a link to my Intro post so that I don't have to retype it all here.....

http://www.weightloss.com.au/forum/viewtopic.php?t=6457

But here's the basics:

Medical Issues
Type II Diabetes
PCOS - both caught in the early stages, but controlled by diet and Metformin.
Arthritis
Lower Back Issues
Low Iron

My Weight Loss History
I have two kids, both pregnancies were spent at a very heavy weight. My first pregnancy I had no idea or inclination to look after myself and I ballooned up to well over 120kg I believe. I was very ill and had a very hard time. My gallbladder gave out shortly after birth and it was very complicated proceducre to have it removed because my liver started shutting down, anyway 3 weeks in hospital over my son's 1st xmas and on a nil by mouth or jelly diet and I dropped 10kg, which signalled the rest of my weight loss down to 100kg. I fell pregnant with my daughter at 100kg and was determined to do the right thing. I put on 12kg with her until the last 5 weeks when I developed gestational diabetes which went undiagnosed until birth when she was weighed and was 11lb. I also put on 5kg during that time so ended up at 117kg. It was very lucky that I was watching my diet and fitness during the pregnancy as it could have been a lot worse.

After her birth i bounced around from 108kg to 115kg, and then one day I stepped on the scales and saw 118kg and just freaked out. From that point on I was on the weight loss wagon and didn't really fall off until the 80's. I kept on plodding through, I counted calories and exercised everyday. My main focus was food not activity, and the more weight i lost the more I started to focus on the exercise part. I reached 73kg which was my lowest weight ever in adulthood and was a size 14 because of the massive fold of skin on my stomach.

I booked in and had a tummy tuck. I was told that it would be 3 months until I could start exercising at the level I was at before and that I could experience swelling up to 2 years after the op. I was doing well, I started exercising slowly I was getting back to where I wanted to be. I had seen 71kg on the scales and then settled at 73kg, by the end of the 3 months I was around 75-76kg which wasn't a bad thing considering I was couch bound for 3 months. I was finally in size 10-12 clothes and feeling fantastic.

Then unfortuantely for me I got notified that I was going in for knee surgery to help correct the arthritis. I went for it thinking that I would bounce back and be able to push myself further and harder than before. In hindsight it was very bad timing. My tummy tuck was in July, my knee op was in September, and I didn't get clearane to do any exercise that involved my legs until February this year. So I spent 6-7 months doing nothing, losing hope and fitness, resorting back to old habits and going nowhere but up on the scales.

When I had my tummy tuck I had a body fat of 19%, within 6 weeks of the op I had gone back to 30%. I'm too scared to see where I'm at now. I have lost a lot of muscle tone, I have put on more cm's and I can't fit into any of my new clothes. All my fat clothes have gone except for a few 14-16's which I'm refusing to wear now because it feels like I would be admitting defeat.

I have been trying to get back on the weight loss wagon since Feb and finding it very hard. Since that point my weight has gone from 76kg to 86kg as of this morning :( I feel very ashamed and disgusted and FAT. I also eel very unattractive, like I have accomplished nothing and basically just feel like a failure. The weight is coming on thick and fast and it is out of control.

Now the other side of the coin, 12months after my DD was born my hubby had a vasectomy, he never wanted any more kids, I was happy we had one of each and was fine with the decision. Xmas last year when my DD was coming up to 3 years old, my hubby dropped the bombshell that he wanted 2 more kids. :shock: So we assessed the situation, most importantly my health, and decided to go ahead with it. He had a vasectomy reversal in Feb of this year and it was very successful. We are in the process of trying for number 3 and I am scared out of my brain that I will end up very big and uncomfortable again. I just want to enjoy this pregnancy when and if it happens.

So I'm on a counting clock to get my butt into gear and get this weight off.

I lsot weight before by counting calories and exercising every day. At the moment I feel like I'm starting all over again and we are going through a lot financially and emotionally as a family and it's very ahrd to focus on just me and what i need to do for myself when everything is going to crap around me.

So I've decided to start fresh, even if I jsut come here and blab about nothing but weight loss, it's what I need to do to get weight loss as number one priority in my life again and get some focus back. I am using the Calorie King site to count cals.

GOALS
My goals are to track my calories to a maximum of 1200 calories a day and fat no more than 40gm.
To plan my meals out for the remainder of the day after brekkie and therefore taking away the 'nibble' and 'can't find anything to eat' factor.
I need to stop binge eating, I seem to be eating to smother myself lately and I just need to stop plain and simple. I'm better than this.
To do some form of exercise every day, whether it be a walk or getting to the gym to use the machines/do a class. Whatever it is, it has to be cardio. My work is very physical so I don't do any exercise on those days as I get a minimum three hours of it at work.


So far today, I have done my calories and the total for the day is 1099, fat is 36gm.

There are no room for binges in my life. I need to keep on top of the food planning and calorie counting. I'm taking it a day at a time.

I'm going to work tonight so no time for exercise, but that's ok I'll mke sure I do extra stuff at work if it is slow going.

Hoping that this time I can get the weight off and keep it off.

My Stats
SW: 118kg
CW: 86kg
GW: 73kg
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Postby kate_turner2000 » Mon May 21, 2007 1:10 pm

hi mickey nice to see you here. what a great start to your progress page :) as for the pcos i have it too and a few other women have it aswell. dont let it get you down or use it as an excuse as to why you weigh this or that. there are ways around it and you can achieve anything. best wishes and sing out if you need anything
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Postby MickeyB » Wed May 23, 2007 1:15 pm

Hi Kate, thanks for your post. The PCOS is something that is just a background thing for me, the metformin pretty much keeps everything in control and it doesn't affect a lot in my life. I lost 18kg before I was diagnosed, and was at 100kg when I started on the met, and then lost the rest from there. I'm borderline not needing it and I think that if I could just get my health sorted and my food intake under control I could probably stop it altogether. It's the mood swings when I'm off it that drives me, and everyone around me, crazy LOL

Anyway, I started out great, Day one was full of self control, ate all the right calories, allowed myself a treat at night time before bed as usual so that I wasn't being too strict and ended up losing about 1kg of fluid weight overnight, so I was happy with that because I could barely get into my work pants on Monday night and I was devastated to think that i might actually have to get into my one and only pair of size 16's jsut so I could breathe. But I told myself no, I squeezed into a pair of 14's and told myself to deal with it, this is the pain I have to experience if I want to binge out and eat crap. It worked though I feel a lot more resovled to do something about my weight again because I never want to feel uncomfortable again in pants that were too big for me 6 months ago.

Yesterday was a bit of a shocker, my mum and I spent the day together, which always spells disaster. I have no willpower when I'm out and about with her, it's a true sabotage moment on both parts I think. My mum is one of my biggest supports, but also my biggest challenge. I tried to stay on track and didn't let it go fully out of control. But I felt so sick after lunch that I had to come home and take a maxolon to try and relieve the nausea. I ended up having dinner later than usual because by the time the nausea had settled I was starving and DH brought home chicken and chips, which I did agree too at the time, so I'm as much to blame as him.

Today, straight back on that horse and doing well. Finished the last of the cream off in the fridge on my porridge this morning, and won't be buying it again. It's yummy but it's a treat I can do without.

I didn't get to the gym yesterday as planned either because I was feeling so sick, and I've got work tonight which is 4.5 hours of heavy lifting and pushing stock around which is enough of a workout.

My start weight on Monday was 86.5, yesterdays was 85.6 and todays weight after yesterdays disaster was 85.2kg so still coming down and it's more than likely still fluid loss at this point, but it'll be good to see the low 80's again and then the 70's. I weigh myself everyday to make sure I am on the right track. At this point a loss of any size or maintain is what I'm aiming for on a day to day basis, I don't take too much notice of the figures except for my weigh in day weight.

Taking it a day at a time, not planning ahead because if I dont' get there I'll feel like I'm failing.

The weekends are my worst binge time and I tend to just forget everything and undo all my hard work, I think a big factor in that is the fact that Fridays were my weigh in days, so I have changed it to Monday instead and see how that works out. I know I need a more relaxed day at some point, but I'll work that out later.

I know I can get this done, I jsut have to stick with it and not fall off. I really feel like this is my last chance to do as much as I can before I fall pregnant. And as much as I want a baby at the moment, I'm hoping the nausea yesterday isn't an indicator of a positive month for me because I'm just not ready inteh weight stakes yet!

Will be checking in every day from now on.

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Postby kate_turner2000 » Wed May 23, 2007 1:33 pm

hey mic

well done for the loss over the past few days. its great to see the scales going down. are you taking measurements too or just going by the scales?

its hard when you are with people and cant help sabotaging yourself! weekends are the hardest for me as well. i just try and swap junk food for healthy options when i can.

keep up the great work. you will have a baby when you are ready ;)
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Postby Chelle » Thu May 24, 2007 3:06 pm

Hey Mickey you have hit hard with a few setback in life, but it is good to see that you don't let this stop you from lossing weight, You have done this before, you can do it again. I'm in the same state of mind with having another child. I want to try for a girl, as I have 2 boys but hubby say yes he want's another child & than next minute he changes his mind. Then I'm in a state of mind I'f I have another child will I undo all the hard work & I want to go to New Zealdand next year so I don't want to be preggas when I go there coz there are so many thing I wan't to do over there that will stop me.
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Postby grugwashere » Thu May 24, 2007 4:36 pm

Hi Mic,

Congrats on your previous weight loss!!! thats fabulous!!

You definately sound like you know what you are doing lol. Im looking forward to seeing your progress and hopefully hearing one day about a new bundle of joy!!! im an extremely clucky person lol...
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Postby MickeyB » Fri May 25, 2007 10:40 am

Thanks for all the replies :D I'm loving this place, just wish I had loads of time to spend on here.

Kate, I am taking measurements, but I took them about a month ago and I'm just going to use them as a starting point for now, I'm too scared to see what they are right now. I normally measure myself once a month. If I can get back to 83kg then I'll probably re-measure and go from there.

Chelle, I am still in the same boat about having another child with ruining all my hard work, especially my tummy tuck. I think a big motivator for me the first time around was the fact I wasn't going to have any more kids. At the time I was about 24 and looking forward to getting out there in nice trendy clothes, socialising again and just doing the other side of life that you don't really do while pregnant/new babies. But now the cluckiness has taken over and I'd never trade the chance of another baby for socialising, and because I weigh so much less I can still get the trendy prgnancy clothes. Plus people will actually know I'm pregnant this time around and not just FAT LOL. I'll admit though this time around it's hard to focus on keeping the end goal because I know I'm going to be pregnant and have to lose weight again. I'm telling myself the healtheir and fitter I am and the less I weigh the easier pregnancy I will have and hopefully not too much work afterwards.

Progress Report: Still getting back on track. Baby steps, baby steps. Had a good day yesterday, although planned a special dinner for DH and I and overdid it on the garlic bread. I knew I should have stopped, and did stop, but not before eating one extra piece that I knew I didn't need. Paid the price with horrible indigestion all night. I really think my body is trying to get through to me to lay off the censored food once and for all. All this week when I've had something small that I shouldn't have I've had repurcussions from nausea, to diarrhea to indigestion.

Hubby and I are both doing well with our challenge and if I can stay on track today and get to the gym tonight I should be able to drop 3kg this week I think. Mostly fluid I know, but it still feels good to see the numbers drop. I really just want to get back into a pattern of 500gm -1kg loss each week.

I've planned my food out for today and have covered all bases and there should be no room for error. Fingers crossed it stays that way. I have gotten rid of all temptation in the house in the form of chocolate, chips and fatty stuff. Just need to avoid baking unless it's low fat and low cal. Easier to just not bake at the moment I think.

I've also been charting this month in our attempts to TTC, and so far so good, it may end up being a positive month for me! I need to figure out how to safely lose weight while pregnant.

Better be going.
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Postby grugwashere » Fri May 25, 2007 12:03 pm

yay 3 kilos!!!! it doesnt matter if its fluid its still a loss CONGRATS!!!! *doing the happy dance*
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Postby kate_turner2000 » Fri May 25, 2007 12:34 pm

hey mic

oh i hate when garlic bread does that! i always opt for herb bread if i have the choice. poor darl!

be comfortable in yourself with your weight. you will put on weight whilst pregnant with the weight of everything but it doesnt mean you cant be healthy. i think sometimes we use the excuse that we are pregnant so we dont need to watch what we eat. the funny thing was that i ate healthy whilst pregnant and i felt better for it! it was after the baby came along and being at home all the time that i put on more weight!!! a flabby tummy is worth it for a little bubba hehe.
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Postby MickeyB » Fri May 25, 2007 12:40 pm

The garlic bread was the best ever LOL I made it msyelf with fresh crusty bread and sprinkled parmesan cheese through it and on it. Yummo, but definately a once in a while food! LOL

And you're right about the pregnancy weight Kate, with my first I just ballooned out, very out of control and very unhealthy, but with my second I watched everything, not trying to lose, just trying to not go overboard and ended up with a teeny 12kg gain over the whole pregnancy, until the last 5 weeks when I developed undiagnosed gestational diabetes and put on 5kg in those 5 weeks. I felt a lot healthier and on top of things with my second which I think counts a lot more towards having a happy pregnancy.

At the moment I guess I really don't want to see the 90's again so if i fell pregnant I'd still want to be working very slowly and carefully in the early stages towards losing weight so that I can avoid those higher figures, if that makes sense? I also have the threat of gestational diabetes developing a lot earlier on now that i have Type II, so the less I weigh the better I think if the GD kicks in early.

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Postby MickeyB » Mon May 28, 2007 9:48 am

Ok, well I crashed and burned somewhat over the weekend. Not as bad as I normally would have and I actually did some exercise on both days, so as far as I'm concerened it's a baby step in the right direction, Rome wasn't built in a day and I can't expect to get myself 100% back on track in one week.
I'm a little disappointed, but still going strong, right back to it this week, and I think I might change my weigh in days to Saturday instead of Monday. I had this problem before, Sunday is our family day so we tend to 'eat out' on thsoe days, and while I was at the stage where I wasn't blowing it completely, I still wasn't eating as healthily as I could on those Sundays, so Mondays weight is always higher. And I'm not really back to eating as healthily as I can right now, so the damage is a little worse LOL So I think a Saturday weigh in will keep me more focussed though, so I'll stick with that for now and see how I go.

So my stats:

SW: 118kg
W - 21/05: 86.5kg
CW: 84.4kg
GW: 73kg
Loss So Far: 2.1kg :D :D :D

I'm working every day this week except Thursday (and the weekend), so I'll have no time for the gym or walking except Thursday arvo, but my work is phsyical so it should be ok as long as I watch my calorie intake, and I'll make sure i do a big walk on Thursday.

My next major goal is the Bridge to Brisbane fun run. I did it in 2005 and walked it in 2hr 15min. I was 94kg. My goal this year is to be back in the 70's, hopefully around 75kg and to walk it in under 2hours. Last year I didn't do it as I had my tummy tuck done and missed out. The only thing that will stop me this time is if I am pregnant and suffering through morning sickness, but if I am pregnant and past that stage then I think I should be fine. I did it with a friend last time, but have lost contact with her, so I'm trying to get hubby to do it with me, he seems keen, so I've jsut got to send away the forms before he changes his mind. I have 10 weeks as of yesterday to get myself into some form of better shape, increase my fitness and basically just get myself ready to do it, it's a pretty long walk.

Anyway, that's about it from me. Not expecting a huge loss this week as AF is due, but I'm going to try, it's not an excuse.
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Postby kate_turner2000 » Mon May 28, 2007 12:59 pm

hey mickey i dont know if you know but another member- roar2life was looking for someone to do the bridge walk with if you are interested.

you are right, small changes are the way to go and you cant expect to change old habits over night. do what you feel will work in regards to weigh ins and exercise. and adapt them accordingly as you go along :)
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Postby MickeyB » Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:03 pm

Well still hovering around the same weight still at 84.4kg by my weigh day on Saturday morning, so no loss but it's my own fault, slacked off a bit this week with having to work everyday and having a cold. For some reason I've also had monster migraines for the past 4 days to the point where I'm getting very dizzy and almost throwing up with it. Still feeling very positive about everything though and working my guts out every day at work to try and help the burn.

I saw the physio for me knees to try and get some strength and support building up in there and have to go back in 2 weeks time. He gave me some exercises for my inner leg muscles, but said that my outer leg muscles were very tight so he'd massage them for me. I said ok, thinking, yay nice leg massage. I swear to god I almost died of pain, if I wasn't writhing around in agony I would have kicked him in the face, it felt like my leg was being stabbed and I told him it was hurting and he said, 'yeah it will be painful'. Nice warning jerk :wink: LOL So not really too keen to get back there, but it has to be done. I tell no word of a lie when i say that a tattoo was less painful than that massage.

Anyway I'm still squeezing into all my size 14's of which there are very few and feeling very uncomfortable and eternally bloated. I feel like wobbly jelly all over and my arms look like flab central again, I miss my muscles!

I went through my entire wardrobe the other day and made the concious decision to rid myself of all the 'fat' clothes that were creeping back in. There was a lot of my old baggy stuff that had found itself back in my main stream shelves, just feeding the excuse not to re-start properly. So I've packed away all of the bigger stuff, and left myself a small amount of clothes that I can just wear uncomfortably now, and all of my smaller stuff that I was wearing this time last year. If I can't find anything to wear then I have no choice but to lose weight to get back into my smaller stuff because i can't afford new stuff, and I refuse to buy it when there's clothes right there that I'm just to lazy to get back into. I'm feeling more and more motivated every day as I see more and more of myself as I really am, someone who is overweight and unfit again, maybe not at a life threatening level, but enough to be worried about so I need to take some action!

Going to go for a walk by myself this afternoon, downloading some new tracks to my MP3 and getting my groove on. I'm going to enjoy myself and NOT avoid the big hills LOL If I'm going to make it to the bridge to brissy this year i need to be in better shape than I am now. I want to be able to wear something slim fitting/flattering and a lot cooler than what i wore last time!

Seeing as we're also TTC properly now I really have to get a wriggle on and drop some weight. I want to see a baby belly this time not have to go swimmin in flab to find it.

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Postby milkyway » Sun Jun 10, 2007 5:20 pm

Hi there Mic- don't be disheartened by your weight stability. At least it wasn't an increase. Hope you enjoyed your new tunes :)

I know what you mean about those leg massages - relaxing? OMG :shock: :evil: :twisted: :shock: I had a hip problem about 3 months ago I got massaged out. How about ouch?

I just bought a funky red leather jacket that is a tiny bit too tight for me - a real inspiration to shed a few more kg so it looks hot on :P
Just keep moving! And don't be lazy...
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Postby kate_turner2000 » Mon Jun 11, 2007 7:19 pm

feel better soon mickey you poor thing. i am sure you will start losing the weight soon once things improve with your health :) take it easy
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