Well I'm still sitting here procrastinating.
It's very disheartening to see the same crap written over and over everywhere since the beginning of this year
. I keep flicking back to some of the other support groups that I've joined all over the web and seeing the same stuff being blabbed out, I'm getting so sick of hearing myself and my excuses LOL
On the plus side (literally LOL) I've managed to stop gaining. I've bounced around the same 84-86kg since I was in here last. For the past 2 weeks I've stabilised on 86kg flat and I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever get any motivation back to reach the 70's. At this stage I would be over the moon to just see 83kg.
I know I've only got myself to blame, but I'm so over it. If it's not one thing it's another lately. I've quit my job, which free's up a lot of my time, but hubby is on arvo shift now so that means exercise in the mornings, which I find hard to do LOL For the past few weeks though I have been feeling very ill. Nausea, dizziness, migraines, (Sorry if TMI) diarrhea, black outs, extreme tiredness, weakness all over, leg cramps, feeling very fuzzy in the head like not being able to concentrate. It's been going on for a few weeks, last week I thought I may have been pregnant with all the tiredness but no, AF arrived on time as usual. I went to the doctor yesterday who has scared me senseless. I asked for some blood tests to see about potassium deficiency as it can cause all of those symptoms, but he has tested for thyroid function as well, this is my worst nightmare as I have a family history of thyroid problems, and it's the last thing I want, especially while TTC and trying to lose weight!
So I think the only way through it is to pull my head in just do this thing. I feel better and my skin clears up when I'm actually looking after myself, (surprise surprise) and if I fall off I'm tending to get down about it and give up slowly till I reach full circle again. Which isn't like me at all. I think if I added up the amount of times I have lost the same 2kg over the past few months, I would have lost the 10kg I need to lose LOL
And once again my stats:
Loss So Far:
I've decided to take it a week at a time as any longer than that and I am falling flat on my face. I would like to lose 1kg for this week, only because I know I can and it's mostly fluid loss etc. I'm getting over a flu at the moment, so haven't walked all week, but plan on going tomorrow morning before the kindy run. Also planning on not eating crap on the weekend. I seriously can't be that damn slack and lazy that I just can't stop over eating!
You know, it's getting to a point where it's pathetic and I feel like people are thinking 'geez she's done it before she can do it again, what's her problem? Why is she getting fatter?" (and yes I'm thinking that about myself) The fact is I have done it before, and I know how to do it, I just can't get my head to click over into drive, it's just sitting in neutral not moving anywhere.
So my goals for this week:
*Lose 1kg and say hello to the 85's and goodbye to the 86's.
*Go for at least 3 walks this week before Monday
*Count Calories for the rest of the week and stop avoiding it on the weekend.
*Don't weigh myself until Monday and expect to see 85kg. Or else
Ok, wish me luck again. I'm gonna need it.