Today was a much better day, in control and on track, willpower is kicking back in and I feel so much better for it. It feels nice to be back in control of what I am doing to my body and my health. I know it's early days, but a positive attitude can only help and I feel like I'm getting back in the zone.
I jumped on the Wii at lunch time, even though I had to force myself to do it, I felt great afterwards and more awake and energetic too, even got my big pile of ironing done!
I felt quite focussed today, Good points
- I didn't have my usual take out lunch
- didn't get anything from the bakery
- didn't stop at Donut King on the way out
- I also didn't buy chocolate, or any potato chips with the shopping
- I made sure I bought a few lean cuisine/steam vegie type things, and i also grabbed a heap of steamer bags for home so that I can microwave steam my own fresh vegies. So I have no excuse about dinners anymore.
- I did my 30min workout.
- I stuck by my 8pm rule.
Points for improvment -
- I had a coffee date with a friend and shared a cookie with the kids - solution
don't get the cookie and get a light salad instead.
- I had a tim tam for arvo tea with some strawberries, - solution
I should have had a mandarin instead of the tim tam.
Overall Not too much damage with the food so I'm satisfied with that. Ali,
but do you think that a comment from a family member or friend would have been the 'wake-up call' that you needed to get healthy again?
You make a good point
And funnily enough your experience was the reason my mum gave me for not saying anything. She was worried that if she said to me I needed to lose weight I would have reacted badly and spiralled further down. In all honesty if anyone but my mum had of said something I would have reacted badly, I would have felt fatter than ever and that they were judging me and it would have caused me to shut down even more.
I also agree it would have hurt regardless, (but no more than how much it hurt when I had to admit to myself that I was morbidly obese and had 50kg to lose) and that it was still up to me to get in the right head space, but I think that if she had of said something, it would have helped to make me start looking at myself a bit more and that in turn would have made me snap me out of my fantasy world a little sooner. i was so far in fantasy I still saw myself as a size 18(ie. not too bad), when I was a size 24!! I realised after I did finally snap to it that I had stopped looking in mirrors , except for my face and I was using the image I had in my head. When I stood up and examined myself properly for the first time in a long time, reality hit and hit hard. I was living in a dream world and I shudder to think where I would be if I hadn't come to my own senses (and in all honesty the ONLY thing that woke me up was pure fear after seeing 118kg on the scales), can't argue with a nfact, and you know what they say, there's a magic number for everyone .
On that note my mum is the one person who could have pulled me aside and I would have listened, knowing that she was genuinely concerned, not saying something to make herself feel better etc. I guess the other thing is she wouldn't have worded it as "You're putting on a lot of weight aren't you?"
, the delivery would have been a lot gentler, I understand you being devastated if your mum approached you like that!!! There's a big difference between someone telling you that they're worried about your weight and that they would like you to know that they are there to support you when you need it, to being constantly told that you're overweight, especially by someone who offers no support.
Anyway, thanks for the welcome back Sassi! The Wii workout is great! I've managed to open up a few more of the advanced yoga poses today and feel the muscles waking up again. The cardio is fantastic, the boxing is good, and the step aerobics is fun! I think for a cardio workout it's not the answer, but for toning, muscle building and flexibility it's going to be more than good enough!
Will Be Back Tomorrow! So far so good, but it's the weekend that's going to get me if I let it
I've decided to weigh in on Mondays as an extra incentive not to overdo it.