I was just thinking to myself the other day that I should write a diary on my experiences with weight loss and the battle with food. And then I found this site!
Its so nice reading everyone's progress and I can definately relate to some of the things written on these posts!!
So here goes... I will be on often to share my stories and experiences and update on my weight loss.
Unlike a lot of people on here who have a lot of weight to lose, I'm not considered overweight. But that doesn't mean I don't have struggles with my weight and food.
Firstly, I would just like to give you a few stats: I am 25 years old and I have a 7 year old daughter. I work full time at the moment and am buying a house with my partner of 4 years who can eat whatever he wants and not put on weight!!! At the moment I weigh about 57.5 kilos and my goal is to get to 50 kilos.
I was always skinny as a kid, my sister used to call me "Twig". Every weekend, I would go out at the crack of dawn with my friend across the road and we would ride our bikes until the sun went down. I guess I didn't see it as exercise back then.
Then I hit puberty
. My boobs grew huge and so did my hips. I started to fill out a bit. It didn't bother me at first, but then one day out of nowhere, my thoughts started turning to the way I looked. There may have been a few comments by people here and there, but it didn't bother me until that day.
I guess when I was little, I could eat whatever and not have to worry about putting weight on. But as I grew, my body changed but my eating habits stayed the same.
I remember my mum saying to my nanna one night that I had big legs. It was horrible lying in bed listening to that conversation. Then I would compare myself to my friends and I just felt different and uncomfortable. I stopped wearing dresses from then on.
My weight has stayed around the 55 kilo mark since I was a teenager. I'm surprised I haven't put on more weight than I have cause my eating habits were shocking!
When I was 15, I worked at a Supermarket and on a Saturday, I would get a chico roll, chips, a milk drink and chocolate and eat it in my room by myself. Or I would buy a large pizza and eat the whole thing alone. Food made me happy and if I was having a crap day, food would make it better. It didn't help that my dad used to buy junk food for me and my sister. I guess it was his way of showing he loved me as we aren't a real close family. The problem is though that he still offers me junk food when I go to his house but he is also giving it to my daughter even though I say not to!!!
I got my first real boyfriend when I was 17 and surprise surprise, three months later I was pregnant! I thought I was going to be with him forever. It didn't turn out that way though. Luckily, I only got up to about 62 kilos when I was pregnant, but I used it as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted cause its what the baby wanted!! LOL. My cravings consisted of fried onions and potatoes and of course, chocolate!!
The weight went away after I gave birth, and it wasn't long before I was back to 55 kilos.
But lately, I have decided enough is enough. I have joined the gym four times and quit four times. I know that if I stick to it, the weight will drop really easily. Its just hard getting out of old habits. Its only now that I have decided to make a change for the better and for the long term.
I changed jobs and put on weight because in my last job, I had to walk fifteen minutes from the train station to my work and back again in the afternoon which kept my weight stable I guess. But since moving jobs, I now drive to work and there is parking on site so I no longer have to walk. I got on the scales last week and I was 59 kilos!! I thought that if I keep going the way I am going, my weight is going to increase and it will be harder to lose.
Lateley I have been polishing off large blocks of chocolate - a couple in a week!!! I can sit in front of the TV and before I know it, the chocolate is gone. I used to get home late in my last job and I was so hungry, I craved the unhealthy stuff!! I didn't want to spend the time to cook a proper meal. I would just go through the Hungry Jacks drive through or something.
So anyway, thats a bit about me. Hopefully writing down things on this forum will help me a) see where I am going wrong b) share my experience with people going through the same thing, c) hopefully inspire others and d) be accountable for my actions
I started my 'New healthy eating and exercising plan' Monday and so far so good! I've managed to exercise every day, make healthy food choices and not emotionally eat.
And I just want to say that just because I don't have a lot of weight to lose, it doesn't make it any easier!!!
My main goal and inspiration is that my sister is getting married on hamilton island in October. I want to look good as her only bridesmaid and also be able to wear a bikini without being self conscious.
I also want to fit into all the nice clothes in my wardrobe which I bought at christmas time that no longer fit!!!
Thats it for now, thanks for listening/reading
I will have to add a before photo when I figure out how. lol