Just relax and enjoy yourself! Going for a run should really make you feel better, exercise always makes me feel better!
I went through the same thoughts as you. I was desperate to take appetite suppresants and just lose the weight really fast and be done with it. I kept telling myself that once I had lost the weight, then I would start exercising and eating right to maintain the weight. But that doesnt work. As soon as you come off them you put it all back on and that would make you feel worse.
Also, some of those medications are really bad for you. There is no quick fix to weight loss, unfortunately. But I think its a lot better and more rewarding to do it the hard way! And you will be healthy too.
I really hope things start getting better for you soon. You deserve to be happy!
Whenever your feeling down, just come talk to us! Please dont give up, because that will just make you feel worse! I know, Ive been there so many times!
Remember: "Pain is temporary, quitting lasts forever" - Lance Armstrong. (he should know about pain! Lol)
I hope you feel better soon! And enjoy your day off!