I am so bad at updating this thing!
You guys are all so lovely
I'm quite excited about the top thing- I've only got 1.6 kilos left now until a new one! Hopefully I can achieve that in two weeks from now, or that's the goal anyway.
Well, currently I am sitting at home eating an orange and waiting for the NRMA guy to come, because I am stupid and locked my keys in my car
I've had an okay week eating wise- binged last Thursday which I wasn't proud of, but the other days were fine. Yesterday I ate more than my recommended calorie intake but I just wanted to have one normal day where I wasn't restricting my intake because my dad was playing at a festival and it was a once in a while treat. I feel like it's ok if I factor it in and plan for it.
Exercise wise I've been a bit crap! Calorie King says my daily average exercise is 17 mins which is a bit atrocious. I didn't do any on one day last week and only did about 20mins on most of the other days so this week there is going to be no slacking off!!
And a question now- my uncle, who is a bit of a fitness freak, said to me yesterday that I look like I've lost more weight, which is cool, because I think I have too and I'm happy about it. And then he asked me how much I've lost, and I told him, and I was just really embarrased by the whole conversation. Because I've been trying to pretend to everyone that I'm not trying to lose weight, I keep saying I'm just trying to be healthier (which is true too, but still). Because I hate the thought that everyone could see how big I was before and that no matter how much I tried to hide it it was there and real and now losing weight implies to me anyway, that I was big enough to have to lose it.
Does that make any sense?? Does anyone else feel like this? I'm so embarrassed about the whole thing in real life. I just want to be a healthy weight before I go to uni and pretend like it just wasn't a period in my life.