Right. I just took my measurements for the first time in about 3 weeks. I've put on at least half a cm on most areas. Measurements are as follows:
Thigh (upper): 60.5cm
Thigh (lower): 44.5cm
As I write this, I've just eaten an 'Ultimate Burger Meal' from KFC - the one with a zinger burger, chips, potato and gravy, and an extra piece of chicken. I sat there eating it, watching So You Think You Can Dance, feeling super crappy about myself. I read through my last thread and it was all basically me going really well for a little while, then having a major blowout and making excuses for it, then delaying getting back on the wagon. I feel rotten, I'm really unhappy about my appearance - I took over an hour to figure out what to wear to work this morning because everything makes my hips look huge/stomach look bulgey/calves look chunky/arms look flabby/etc. I now realise it's not the clothes that make me look like that, it's the lack of care I'm taking of my body. I ate 2 pieces of fruit today and drank nearly 2 x 600ml bottles of water (that's quite good for me) but then blew it all at dinnertime!! What the heck is wrong with me? I wll grant that it is TTOTM, but I can't use that as an excuse for drinking for the past 3 weekends and having biscuits/chips/softdrink/takeaway constantly for the past few weeks. I dream of the day when I go up to QLD to visit my family and friends and have them say 'WOW i don't remember the last time you looked that good!'...but the way I'm going it just doesn't look like that day is going to come. I'm trying to bid on some exercise DVDs on Ebay (they are more Dance type DVD's because I love that kind of thing) and I'm aiming to have my fruit and water at work every day, but I just can't seem to stay motivated. It is too easy to cave in and buy takeaway for dinner, or have a bowl of icecream, or a biscuit (or 3).
I want to be able to say that 'yes' I will do this, I will stick to it, I will shed the weight and finally be happy with myself but I have failed so many times already, I don't want to stuff up again
Sooo, to help myself face the music a little better, I took some new pics. These are as of about 10 minutes ago. Please excuse the mess on the floor, that is where I get ready for work in the morning, hence the clothes strewn everywhere in frustration! And clicking on the pics should make them bigger...
Anyway, thanks for reading guys, sorry if I have come across as a big depressed sad sack, just had to get it all off my chest. I'm going to try to update this thing a lot more often than my old thread. Cheers.