Up until February last year, my weight loss was going really good. I had lost about 23 kilos very easily.
Then something happened. I went through a very emotional period. I also had to move out of the house I was living in to where I am now. I was so destatute and upset that I even thought of suicide. I had loved this person so much that what she did to me made me feel that life wasn't worth living.
Now I'm in a very happy and stable relationship and engaged to be married, to a wonderful man who loves me so much. He doen't care what I weigh. He loves me for the person that I am and that makes me so very happy to have found him.
I want to lose weight and I need to lose weight but what happened last year is still with me. I don't seem to have the motivation that I once did to lose this weight. I can't seem to do what I need to to lose the weight. I still get emotional sometimes about what she did to me that Jim justs holds me till I stop crying.
I told Jim last night the reason why I think I can't lose the weight and he agrees.
At present I can see myself getting bigger and bigger.