Hi all, not sure if any of you may have this or not...
I feel awful.
Even though I've lost 16kgs so far this year, (30 kilos all together from my highest weight)...
But my self esteem feels the worst it has ever been.
I feel ugly, horrible and even bigger than ever. I know that's not true (bigger than ever thing). But I just find it so irritating. Why can't I be happier and more confident like every one else I know who has lost weight (or in the process of).
I feel afraid to try out new clothes, all i want to do is hide my big trackies and a loose jumper.
Each time anyone that has come up to me and complimented me, I honestly feel like crying. I know that mentally, im not the best ( I am still in recovery from an eating disorder).
I guess alot of the awful mentality from that has stuck around. Its been incredibly hard to maintain a slow healthy weight loss. And I guess the fact that alot of people I know are losing weight fast and looking incredible.. Where I know that even when i technically lose the weight, I'll still be ugly...
I know this has sounded incredibly attention seeking or self indulgent. But I know that I cannot be the only one who feels this way when they have lost weight or losing it?
I guess I would feel a little better knowing that im not the only one struggling.