Divalicious wrote:I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO DISGUSTED IN MYSELF!!!

Never mind about feeling that! At this time you can't afford to spent the energy on such negative things!
What is done is done. Learn the valuable lessons from it instead.
These lessons that you learn in the pointy end of the journey are the gold that will ensure your success.
Don't waste the experience...this is where it is underscored in your thinking that any lax practice of healthy lifestyle is a sure road towards disaster.
Divalicious wrote:But I faced the music this morning (Sunday is my weigh in day) and after seeing 5.7kg up from my lowest figure, I know that this HAS TO turn around and NOW!!!
Good work here!
Accountability is key to success.
Nothing like many pairs of eyes to keep you on track to keep your integrity intact!
Many years ago during a dark time in my life things weren't going so well.
One of the things that kept me on track to keep my life together was a friend saying to me that many younger people we knew were watching me to see how I would cope. Knowing that was that extra boost to help me keep it all together.
Divalicious wrote:Today I hit 69.4kg and that for me, was wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too close to the 70's again for my liking!!! The weight starts going down from here!!! No more excuses; no more binging!!!

That's it - draw that line in the sand and like Martin Luther declare "Here I stand! I can do no other!"
Review your lifestyle, find the weaknesses and clean up the sloppy practices that have crept in.
With your exercise, you will have to figure out how to work it to fit into your new lifestyle (change of jobs).
There is always a way...you just have to find it.
With that new exercise bike...I think that you may find that you'll have to spend more than 30 minutes on it to make up for not going to the gym. I do 3X30 minutes and I'm in maintenance mode (admittedly I eat far more snacks than I should - so I willing pay the price by extra exercise). Also not all 30 minutes are equal in the realm of exercise. For example my wife does 30 minutes on the bike on the lowest setting for a 100 calorie read out and is sweating slightly. I do 30 minutes on the "8" setting for 200 calories and am sweating buckets.
Divalicious wrote:Kim, thank you for checking on me........you're a sweetie xx
I hope your mum is better, and no more falls.
I admire your efforts in the face of such adversity, and I know that if anyone can stay strong and true, it's you Kim!!!
I just gotta follow your lead........
Hey that is what the Forum is all about...supporting each other especially in the tough times.
My natural reserve (no honest this is true!) stops me from chasing up too much.
Such a fine line between being supportive and a nag!

There are so many people that hang around this Forum or have been on this Forum that I'm itching to email or private message but don't wish to force myself on to them.
But you are so very close to success and experience shows me that when people get that close they throw it away just before they could have achieved it. I don't want that prize to slip through your fingers. I want you to enjoy that better future as I am.
It's time for you to turn that boat around before it hits the iceberg!
As for my Mum...she got out of hospital to go back into her aged care place - which went into lock down due to an outbreak of gastro.
Unfortunately she can't miss a trick at the moment - she has came down with it.
To top it off...my sister has started a two month cruise (more boat talk) and isn't going to be about so I get to do all the leg work.
Josie, keep filling your head with "can do" talk and you will win out!
I'm here for you!
Kim