Yes I know what you mean. Working in a small office is limiting when it comes to establishing a friend base, especially if there are difference between you like age, interests and so on.
I work in a large organisation, and there are heaps of people of all ages, race, religion, size....you name it, there are all kinds of interesting characters. And how many "girl" friends or "friends" full stop do I have from work....NONE, zippo!!!
Sure I get along with most people, we laugh and chat at work, but outside working hours we all go our own ways. It used to really disappoint me, especially as I was always such an outgoing type, but now I accept it for what it is, a WORKPLACE. A place to go to in the morning, do a job, and leave at the end of the day. It is not a means to an end for socialising. Sure if someone asks me to join them for lunch, I do. Or if we are having a send-off etc, I attend. I make jokes, laugh and am very friendly all round, but I don't expect to make a best friend out of it.
I think you're putting too much pressure on yourself. Enjoy the job for what it is, for what it gives you in the way of money, opportunity and comforts (ie. close proximity to home, car space etc) and who knows, when you least expect it, you might click with someone and make a lasting friend.
I've read a few of your posts, and although I don't know you, I think I've learnt a little about you already.
In my first post to you, I said that I'd be your friend but you didn't even comment on this. You keep bringing up the "I'm fat, not thin or pretty like the others" etc and it sounds like an excuse; something to blame for not being able to make friends. It's about confidence in yourself that makes you friends, not how you look.
Anyone interested in you as a potential friend will hear your "whoa is me" message in your tone, expressions etc and they will run like a vampire from a crusifix.....get over it, you have a weight problem, not leprasy!!!
I will do all I can to support you. I will be there if you want to post, or PM or make contact with me within or outside of this forum, but if you just want to feel sorry for yourself, don't bother, I'm too busy trying to cope with my own self esteem issues!!!
I think you're a great girl, and you would make a fantastic friend, but before you can be mine or anyone else's friend, you have to be one to yourself, otherwise any friend you do make will only be temporary as you will push them away because you won't believe they REALLY want to be your friend.
Sorry, that may sound harsh, but you seem to be crying the same message in almost all of your posts.
Strong people don't walk away from the truth, only the excuses others try to sell them.