Hi Fay,
Losing a family member is always going to be hard, no-one can know exactly what you are feeling, but I'm sure everyone here will/would be there for you if/when you need us, not to mention all your non-cyber friends and family. Grief is an individual thing and I'm sure that you will find your on path through it. And I'm sure that whatever words you choose, they will be just the right ones.