Giving up the fags is the hardest thing hun, I feel for you!
Ive been 13 months smoke free now, and I was a pack of Horizon 50s smoker a day (yeah feral, I know!
) it was soooo hard and I think I attempted to do it about 20 times before i finally gave up...it was the hardest thing, but it has also been the most rewarding....to not need a smoke first thing in the morning, to no sore chest and lungs, no more gunky cough, smelly hair and clothes, no more headaches and dizziness....milo, I can smell my perfume now, I am far less stressed out (surprisingly!) and I can walk for hours without chest pain or feeling puffed....its so rewarding mate, and you will do it too, I promise, if you keep at it
Im totally anti smoking now, the smell of it gives me an instant headache and makes me want to vomit.....when i successfully gave up this time around I used the patches, and my god did they make ALL the difference to me! They really take the edge off, then all you need to deal with is the 'habit' (smoke while having coffee, on the phone, on your break etc....I broke this by sitting in a different seat, drinking water, sucking on a lollipop, sugarfree gum, etc I didnt go out on my back veranda for 6 weeks as this was where i would sit for ages and smoke and i knew just being out there was too much temptation....you need to replace the old habits with new ones
) You can do it mate! If you slip a bit, who cares, just keep at it and you will get there!
good on you milo!