You look so sad, smile girl!
I love the colour of your shirt
We all have "fat and ugly days" no matter what we weigh.. you will gain confidence as you lose wieght but you still have to find it within yourself to love you and love your appearance... I recommend smiling in photos, posing in the mirror, writing a list of all your best assets.. you can do this
oh and btw, your kitchen looks awesome *jealous*