Do you want to know something fat? I absolutely HATE you... I do, I know that's a strong word, but that's truely how I feel. You are trying so hard to destroy me, I am now going to destroy you.
You are the ugliest, yellow, shiny, smelly,gooey discusting thing I have ever seen. I know what you look like under my skin. I know that you are crowding my internal organs, making their life so much harder, to make their job as difficult as possible. You are suffocating them, restricting them. You are laughing at me aren't you? You think I can NEVER say goodbye, and you will always live within me. You think I will always welcome you into my body again, even if I get rid of you temporarily. You are smiling right now at this letter, thinking "What a croc, she will never get rid of me". Well, I have news for you FAT... I am going to get rid of you, get rid of you forever. I am going to sizzle you up like fat in a frying pan, and make you shrink until you don't exist anymore. I am going to use water to flush you away, and exercise to sweat you out and burn you off. Every time I feel pain from exercise I will LOVE it... as I know that it is you trying to stop me from getting rid of you. Pain will do nothing but empower me to do more. Every day, I will work for an hour or more SOLEY TO GET RID OF YOU. Gram, by gram, kilo by kilo, I am going to watch you dissolve, and watch my body blossom with renewed vitality and energy. I am going to slice you away, like a vege peeler, until there is nothing left of you. Every step, I am closer to saying good bye to you forever. I am going to eat foods that HELP me to get rid of you and avoid the foods you love and thrive on. You will slowly start to starve, and every time I am hungry I will know that you are hurting, craving and shrivling away.. hunger will become my friend, and when I feel hunger breifly, I will take pleasure in the fact that I am destroying you, instead of you destroying me.
I am in control of my own body, and if I want you gone you will be. It may take me time, I am not saying that I will be rid of you tomorrow, but I am going to do everything I can to slowly and permanently get rid of you FOREVER. Every kilo I lose, I will be saying goodbye to a part of you.... it is like I am covered in a big pile of bricks, on top of me, suffocating me, making it hard to breathe, and every kilo will be 1 brick being lifted off me, until I will become healthier and healthier, until all the bricks are lifted off and I will be able to stand up and live my whole life again.
I am going to unzip the fat suit, and the sexiest, lovliest, lady is going to step into the world with a new lease on life. Everyone is going to be so amazed at my transformation, and when I walk down the street and a head turns, I will know it's for the right reasons and not the wrong ones. I can hold my head up high, and not be the funny one making jokes about my wieght. The fat ladies' will no longer approach and tell me we will have to stick together, as I will be one of the slim ones they will envy and admire.
A compliment will far outway the pleasure of a peice of chocolate or a piece of cake.
A sideways glance from my husband will be alot more long term than an extra serve of dinner, or a binge on something nasty.
I Olivia, with all my heart, SWEAR to you, from this day on, that I am going to do everything in my POWER EVERYDAY to say goodbye to you forever.
I have to do it TODAY as you could have killed me by tomorrow.
Just wanted to let you know what my plan is you horriable, ugly, determined B#$&*^D.... YOU WILL NOT WIN IN RUINING ME AS I AM GOING TO RUIN YOU.....
Your NO. 1 ENEMY