I had been a regular reader/poster in this forum, up until a month ago, when I basically fell off the wagon big time. I was doing so well, getting down to around 63 kilos, gyming, walking and eating right. I felt great. Then several things happened, my mum arrived for a holiday, and we had a great time, but while she was here, we had a vomiting bug go through our house, then I got really sick with a throat, sinus infection ( now I have it again, so I am on antibiotics again), my gym membership ran out, when I was supposed to renew and review my programme I cancelled because I was so sick.
Mum and I enjoyed our evening drink, but now I am having that evening drink 4 or 5 nights per week, and having more than one. I am eating so badly again, heaps of bread, all the bad things and I haven't excercised for a month, I have been sick and I am sick of being sick! I am so rundown thats why I am getting these infections. I have now put on 4 kilos in around a month, and am totally disgusted and depressed with throwing all my good work away. My defined waist that I had from my gym work, is starting to thicken up again and I am so tired. I am not taking care of myself, and I am so overwhelmed that I can't seem to start afresh. I need some motivation to get me going again. I have nearly come to terms with the fact that we are not having any more kids, that has been a big issue for me (2 yrs trying with 3 miscarriages) and really want to move on and enjoy life.
I need help, can I get up from this and get back on track. I feel like crying at my lack of consistency and enthusiam. Thanks for reading.