Heres a *smile* for you.
Don't beat yourself up. I know it's probably easy for me to say that cause I'm not you but in the past (and even sometimes now) I still get really down and depressed with myself. I get so annoyed with myself for being fat is what it basically comes down to. When I was at my lowest I just wanted to give up and hide from the world.
But hey we have only have one life. I care for intellectually disabled adults and 99.9% of the clients I look after, they have had such a tough life. Most have been institutionalised up here since 4-5 years of age! They are now in their 40-60's. When I feel crap and worthless I think of the crappy life some of them have had and how everyday little tasks that we take for granted, many of my clients can not. I will not go into details but use your imagination
Anyway I just try to be grateful for what I do have, focus more so on the positives. I am grateful I can walk, talk, smell, hear, see etc. Damn I have it good!
Sorry if this sounds like preaching. And if I offended anyone by talking about my wonderful clients then I'm sorry. I am trying to make a point to Etch.
Maybe Etch have a few days 'break' from worrying about your weight to get back on track. Focus on YOU for a few days. Do something, instead of worrying, that you love and makes you happy. Just a suggestion
Take care Etch. You will make it, and you know it
Have a good one.