Im now convinced that my wife is sabotaging my attempts to lose weight. No matter how many times i ask her not to, she always leaves junk food out for me to see. I know its my responsibility to ignore them and not eat them and use will power, but some support would be nice. Maybe im just being selfish??
Today she baked some scones, so i agreed to go and buy some jam and cream to put on them. I know thats not really healthy, but ive been pretty good this week, and i appreciate her efforts, so i thought a little bit wont hurt to much. I have to work tonight anyway, so better to eat them on a worknight than on a night off!!!
Then she went crook at me for getting the low fat cream!! She said she needs the "real cream". I said to her for the 100th time "IM ON A HEALTHKICK.....IM TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT......I NEED TO MAKE SACRIFICES SOMETIMES...GET IT INTO YOUR HEAD WOMAN"lol
But the biggest proof came yesterday afternoon after i went for a short bike ride..........when i got home I found her on the bed crying. I asked her what was wrong, and she said "Im worried your going to lose weight then leave me".............
Now, i realise she is insecure, and im doing everything in my power to reassure her. BUT.....I cant live my life 40kg overweight with a sore back and aching knees and god knows what else just because she cant learn to trust her husband!!!
Geez Louise..... I am the one that has been cheated on by my first wife.......and my wife is the one that doesnt trust!!! Go figure!!!!
Im hoping like hell, that after the baby is born in a few weeks, that i can convince my lovely wife to go on a healthkick herself and try to lose some weight, just so that she feels better and can then understand why i want to lose some weight, and that its all about feeling better and not about looking more attractive for some young flimsy to come in and destroy our marriage!!!