I started up my own home based business about 5 months ago. A huge part of this business requires making telephone calls, lots of them, and mostly to people I do not know. The aim of the calls is to invite them to take a look at the business so that they can evaluate it and decide for themselves if they would like to join up.
Now I am a shocker at telephone calls at the best of times, and it took a huge
amount of courage to make that first phone call! After a while it did become easier, but I still felt very uncomfortable and it took a long time each day to get going with it. I was working on my business, mostly making calls, sometimes just emailing, every night after I got home from work, from about 6:30pm, and sometimes not getting to bed until after 11pm. I would then wake up at about 5:30am to get my excercise done before work... so I was not getting enough sleep to start with!
The main drama was though, that because I dreaded the phone calls so much, I turned to food. Most nights it seemed as though I would not stop eating from the time I got home to the time I got to bed. Comfort food... or maybe just a way of procrastinating even further... Regardless, I ended up putting on at least 5kgs, leaving me in a situation where I couldn't fit into any of my clothes, couldn't go out anywere because I had nothing to wear, and felt absolutely shocking in general! (Luckily that has eased off a bit now since coming to this site, and starting to get rid of a tiny bit of weight)
So I hit the panic button, stopped doing what I was doing, and I am now focussed completely on getting rid of those extra kgs. At night I spend most of my time excercising, preparing food, doing housework etc, instead of working on my business.
This is great but I'm feeling really guilty about abandoning all the hard work that I did on my business! I don't want to give up my business because of the investment I have put into it so far, in terms of time, money and emotions. And because of the significant financial benefit that could come of it (I don't want to be still working when I'm 65!!) But I'm afraid that if I go back to it, that I'll start overeating / bingeing again, and get back into the same destructive pattern.
Sorry I have written an essay here... just not too sure what to do, so any input would be great