What's motivation? Lol.
I'm on the KM program atm. Celebrity Slim before that. I always do GREAT in the first few weeks, then I slip up (usually early on), but then still lose good numbers, so it get's into my head that its okay for a slip here and there, even though I know, deep down it's really not.
I'm always saying to myself, "Nope, that's it. Tomorrow no more slipping." Then tomorrow turns into the next day, then the day after that. Infact, today is my tomorrow...if that makes sense. Even though, last night all i sliped on (gosh, that sounds funny) was Barbeque Sakatas, carrot sticks, a handful of nuts, some Black Swan "Skinny" Roasted Capsicum dip and somedried fruit (that's over the course of the day...kinda. The dip, Sakatas, carrot and nuts were my late night snack), I still feel like I've cheated myself, you know?
I always get depressedand so close to just saying "F*uck it, I'm sick of this!" when we go grocery shopping. My partner told me recently not to be so hard on myself. "If you want it, have it," he told me. He's really sweet
But the problem is, I can't stop at "just one" or "just a little" I even have trouble stopping when I'm full. I think the last one is because I'm so used to eating a big meal, because that's what i've ben served my whole life. It's horrible.
We've recently started walking again, which helps, though it IS hard to find the motivation sometimes. With the restricted carbs on the KM plan, energyis sometimes scarce, but I've found Green Tea helps. With a teaspoon of splenda and a little low-fat milk. Gives me that little extra.
I hate couting calories, carbs and all that crap too. I think mostly because it just confuses the hell out of me lol. But we'll all get there...I just keep imagining myself in a bathing suit now...and then after I getto my goal weight
helps a little.
. . . when the rich wage war . . . it's the poor who die . . .