21 kilos loss is an enormous
achievement! You've obviously been tenaciously self-disciplined to have managed that! I battle with losing just 5 kilos and have not been able to get past about 3 or 4 before giving up in the past.
I had a low yesterday too, pre-party, when I went shopping for an outfit to wear and was choosing 16's and even 18's that were too small for me! I nearly gave up. I nearly decided not to go to the party but I eventually did find something that fit and looked pretty good. My daughter did my hair for me and I put on a little make-up, and guess what, (ok I know this is terribly shallow) but more than one man flirted with me and I had comments from people I hadnt seen for like 20 years (back when I WAS slim) and they said things like 'you've barely changed'. (Ok so yeah...maybe they were just being nice) but anyway, Im glad I took some trouble on myself. My confidence needed it and it was nice. So...F*** the mirrors and the size 16 drama...it is completely ok and fun to dress up and make the mostest of the hostess of your body *now*.
And no I didnt take anyone home
It was just nice to feel good about myself *for my own benefit*. And so should you!