I always feel pressure to be the "funny fat girl" and like Ally (Hi Ally!
) I too crack the fat jokes first as a defence mechanism. I feel that there's an unspoken expectation for larger plus sized people to always be "jolly".
Hi Green Butterfly!
I feel the same way too sometimes. All my friends are thin and can wear whatever they want. When they make judgements on other larger girls we see when we're out I often wonder "hmmm, if that's what she thinks of her I wonder what she really thinks of me".
Maybe it's my own self consciousness but my friends can wear boob tubes and pretty much whatever they like and sometimes I feel like one of them in particular likes to rub it in (but also thinks she's "fat").
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