I've been offline for a while but just started reading these posts again today and thought, omg, I am not the only one doing things like this.
I've always been sneaky with my food, bad food that is, not just at home, at work as well.
I use to think also, if no one saw me eat it, it doesn't count. But of course it mattered, should matter to ME!! I had been sneaking a little bag of lollies when my workmates were out of the office and sneakily eating them at my desk when no one's looking. And I had been buying the big Ice Breaks (no, not normal size, the bigger 1L I think) and hiding the bottle in my bag but sneaking drinks of it in the morning then putting it in a public bin near work, so no one would see it.
I also got really good at sneaking food at home, changing spots of where I kept it. Either in the bedroom, office or in my bag. I"d got into another room and watch 'my own' show seperate from my partner, then nibble on my food. Or if I knew he was out from home, i'd have my block of chocolate/donuts/choc almonds/choc bars and then whatever I couldn't eat, i'd hide again. All the rubbish i'd hide really well. Id wrap it all up in a paper towel, then in a plastic bag, then stuff it at the bottom of the bin. Then fill up the inside bin to put it in the big bin out the front, so no one would know. Or i've put some choc wrappers inside the brown mushroom bag, then into the bin and of course, no one knew about it or suspected.
But of course, i've always had to go out again to replace the cooking chocolate drops by Cadbury (so yummy) .... I mean eww yuk! As I had no other chocolate in the house.
I've even eaten 2 sausage rolls and a iced coffee and a lamington driving home from work, scoffing those things down to satisfy a 'craving' before I got home and acting as if I was still hungry for dinner when I was really full from stuffing my face. That's even been KFC or McDonalds as well.
Even growing up, I use to steal and eat my sister's choccy eggs each Easter time, as they were slow eating them and I had always eaten mine so quickly then as i'd realised i'd eaten most of their eggs (cause i'd only take away one or two little ones at a time, so they didn't notice), i'd have to go out and replace some of them.
As i'm typing this, i'm realising how bad i've really been, with all this food growing up.
I've always hid my bad eating - I've always hidden so no one would judge me eating something bad. Even if I did eat something bad in front of someone/in public, i'd act as if I don't do it all the time or get a salad with chips to make it look not so bad. Or i'd say 'i've been good, I haven't had this in a while, i'll just treat myself'.
Thanks for this topic, it's been really good to vent about it. this has sorta opened my eyes to what i've been doing, and i'll ive done is said (typed) it out loud to you girls.
At least I know i'm changing now and my new eating style isn't like that anymore. And my treats are now the non-food kind.
(sorry about my long reply)