Hey Tegan. I work from home quite a lot (and I also study part-time) and often for long periods of time. Sometimes, like now, I get to break my work week up with 2 days spent in an office with a great bunch of co-workers, and I really enjoy the company. But when I am isolated from the world, I get quite lonely and start to go mad. I also get tempted to eat crap, sleep in, watch telly instead of doing what I should be doing and then I end up having to pull several all nighters to get a job finished on time. Then I slap myself for doing that and swear I will never do it again when I fall in an exhausted heap. But it's really hard to get it together when you're feeling down and break the cycle.
So, what I have done when I feel like crap and get a month long case of the 'I can't be bothereds', I break things down into small, achieveable tasks and make up lots of lists that I can check off when each task is done which gives me some sense of achievement, which makes me feel just a little bit better. I might have mind numbingly dull things on my list such as 'depost cheque' and 'buy staples' or 'read first 10 pages of chapter 4.'
In regards to developing friendships at work, why not suggest to the people you like, casually, "hey, we should get together for a drink/dinner/game of cricket this weekend/friday night". Keep it light and see what sort of response you get. Don't make a formal invitation. Or even offer your place to host a bbq "I was thinking about firing up our new bbq next weekend, do you guys wanna come?"
Is it possible to extend yourself beyond your current course/faculty and get involved in wider, general uni activities? Do they have a cycling club or anything like that you'd be interested in joining?
If you're not happy with your course, then don't do it. There's absolutely nothing wrong with saying "nope, this isn't for me." In fact, it takes quite a lot of courage to be able to do that. Is what you want to do worth another three years of misery? And what happens if you find out you don't really like the job or it's not what you thought it would be like?
I went through this about 3 years ago when I returned to Australia after living overseas for a few years. I was enrolled to do my masters of TESOL and moved back here to do it, but after just 2 weeks, I knew it wasn't for me and after 3 weeks, I pulled the pin, but damn it was sooo hard to do because I'd given up so much for it! I hate quitting something I've started. Hate it! Anyway, I'm much happier now and feel like the universe has a hand in helping me get to where I'm supposed to be... which is definitely not teaching
Good luck, Tegan.
Just keep moving! And don't be lazy...
SW: 74.3kg - 1/1/09
CW: 71.1kg - 3/5/09