Before I began to loose weight I never acknowledged that I was clincally obese, I always saw myself in my head as just being a little bit too heavy. Though I would of course see picutres of me and be disgusted.
Now I have lost 19.8 kg (with 17.1 to go) I still see the man who weighs 108.9 kg. I don't see a difference, others do and comment, I can see it in my clothes - nothing fits me and I see it on the scale but I look at myself and just cannot get my brain to make sense of it all. And that translates into thinking I will NEVER get there, that is, my goal weight. Despite the fact that one of the reasons I never tried in the past was that I believed than I'd always be huge and NEVER loose weight, yet my scales tell me I've lost 19.8.
That kind of thinking makes it hard to stay motivated which is where I'm at at the moment.
I'm struggling to get to a major breakthrough which is to have my BMI puppy read 30 (87 kg, a further loss of 2.1 kg) so that I can at least be 'overweight' and not 'obese'. I just don't think I'll ever make it. Let alone get to my minimum goal wt of 72 (actually want to be 68kg).
However, that all being said and done even at present 89.1 its been almost 14 years since I weighed that much (little