Hi Michael. Sounds like you need to sort out your self image from your body image because right now you are mixing happy/sad with fat/thin. Which is not right. I'm sure there are many things about you as a person that are admirable, think about them for a minute. Being overweight doesn't make you a bad person, it just makes you a good person that has a challenge to overcome. And guess what, you're doing something about it!!!!! Just being on here makes you admirable because you have 1) recognised a problem and something about yourself that you'd like to improve and 2) are seeking help in doing it! Isn't that a good thing?
Most of us can associate with feeling terrible about how we look at some point, I know I can. But as I lost weight I realised that it was actually changing my mind set which helped me lose weight, not the other way round. My body is still not quite where I want it, but my mind and heart are a LOT further on it's journey to optimum health.
We're all here to support you (and each other) so feel free to come on to get some inspiration or blow off steam or get some support whenever you feel like it - there is usually someone to give you a leg up back onto the wagon again!
Big hugs from all of us
35kg lost. (November 2005 - October 2006)
15kg gained again (as at October 2010).
Back to the drawing board - Let's do this thing!
"You can't change the winds, but you can change the sails"
"Reach out and take control of what lands in your lap"