It is currently Fri Dec 09, 2016 12:57 pm
blomby wrote:I hope i havent gone off the subject too much, im just rubbishing on.
BubbleButt wrote:I probably shouldn't answer this today because I'm not exactly in a very good mood but I gotta get it off my chest somehow.
I still have a long way to go with my weight (57 odd kilos to be exact) and I have a lot of issues with the way I look and feel. I used to be very outgoing and loved to have a laugh with friends and family, now I find I am more of a hermit crab than anything else because I don't feel comfortable out and about in the world with the way I look.
I have had the "how far along are you?", "how much longer do you have?", "do you know what you are having?" questions more than once and surprisingly they didn't seem to bother me much. What got me was going to school one day to pick up my stepdaughter and hearing her stand up for me against the kids in her class. A 6 year old shouldn't have to do that and it broke my heart.
I don't like the way I look and won't look in a mirror at all, except to do my hair which takes no time at all because I either leave it down or pull it back in a ponytail. I don't go and buy clothes unless absolutely necessary and it had been over two years since I bought clothes although I ended up having to buy some new jeans on Friday just gone because I hardly had any denim left on the one pair I had that fit me from the constant wear. Good thing tho was I didn't have to go up a size, although I would of like going down a size.
I don't like how unfit I am and how I'm tired after a few hours of being out of bed. I don't like that I'm not going to be able to have a child of my own because of my weight and I hate how I can't keep the willpower going to lose the weight I need to feel healthy and be healthy. I want to be able to like myself again and be happy with myself. I just know it's going to take me a very long time to get where I want to get to.
On a good note tho, this forum has helped me immensely and I know that I can do it this time. I can get the weight off and I can become the new me!
Ally wrote: .....you will always find at least one person (usually a whole lot more ) who has either been there done that, or is going through it and it does make you feel like you are not alone.........
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