i went and saw a dietitian on monday.. it was the best. I wasn't expecting much but she was the most interesting kind lady I have met. She seemed to know exactly what was going on with me with minimal explination from me.
I was actually iagnosed with an eating disorder.
This is because I am a compulsive dieter, so when I am on a diet I usually reduce my calories to 1000 - 1200 (starvation mode) so when I finally break the diet i binge... the eating diorder part is that after I binge I vomit... YUCK
She said that with my dieting ways i have basically made my motabolism as low as it will go and I have broken all trust that my body has with me to feed it properly. It is in constant fear of being put back into starvation mode, my motabolism is always very slow and whenever I eat, my body holds onto all fat for dear life....
So I have a long road ahead of me where I have to learn how to deal with food properly. It's pretty full on. I am pretty scared actually, but she is great and i have made a decision to take a leap of faith and trust her advise to me.
thanks for letting me get that off my chest - not the sort of thing you tell your mates!!