Hey my lovelies,
Just popping in to check some Pm's and to let you know why I got my post deleted.
I haven't left the forum. In a moment of...madness (I guess) I asked for my progress threads to be deleted because I felt so selfish
to be worrying about maintaining my weight when a great big fear is hanging over my head every sing day. I'm watching my mother fight for her life and the last thing I felt like doing was talking about my weight
I felt really selfish to be focusing on me, and reading my own post of how happy I was to have achieved this weight loss and all the other achievements I've made throughout my journey just made be sad and out of no wear the the thought of life's to short to be worrying about weight appeared in my thoughts and I wanted to cleanse myself, hence the deleting of my progress thread (I hope that makes sense to you all). Plus needing to spend all my time with my mummy (I even told the olds I was going to move back home, when I only live 7 minute walk away) I felt like being on here was taking time away from us.
What I didn't realise, this little community of ours kept me and does keep me sane. Logging on allowed for a few moments of time to just focus on something else and not worry or stress or be scared of what may or may not happen with my mum.
I've been walking around in a daze, I even missed a half marathon I was supposed to run in on the 1st weekend on June and rocked up yesterday to it wondering where everyone was. I called James to find out what was going on, and he kindly told me it was the weekend prior and he just assumed I didn't rock up because of the situation. When I got back home, it was clearly marked in my dairy, just goes to show how out of it I am.
So that's it. I haven't left the forum, I just got a little lost that is all.
Hope all you lovelies are doing great. Now that I'm on here I'm going to go catch up with you all