Gosh, I think this is one of the most difficult times I'm having. I can actually see what I'm doing to myself.
I am even more stubborn than before, in not wanting to give up flavour and satiety. Thats how I see losing weight. A tasteless regimented routine of deprivation. ARghh, kill me now.
Being fit and slim is a faded memory for me of some years ago now.
It seems I have heightened tasted buds and the thought of counting calories seems damn awful, to be honest. Food and flavour and satiety are way more important than looking slim.
I can see for the first time, that I have become a yo yo, so that is putting me off big time. How do I know, I can commit to long term maintenance of new weight. What keeps me sane on a diet, is the fact that I will taste these unhealthy dreamy flavours again.I'm being pulled one way and then the other.
The only kicker for me is when I see the michelins sneeking up around my middle and the my thighs getting thicker, so there already is the reason why i want to lose weight and that is not sustainable, because I always dream of those yummy flavours and can't wait to treat myself after a diet.
I realised I hit the wall when I found out that to succedd with maintenance, you have to watch calories all your life, once you are at maintnenance calories.
How do I find my swing, but its harder this time, cause I can see, that it all may come back. I dont want to yo yo.
I was so good at this once.
Thanks for reading