I don't want to sound nasty or to criticise or cause you any disrespect, but it is my honest opinion and that is why you came here for, so I'm just going to say what I thought when I read your post (I sincerely apologise to you if I cause you any hurt by writing this, as it is not my intention to do so
When I initially read your post I thought- ok Nikki is making excuses and justification as to why she can't fit in exercise. You stated that you aren't trying to make excuses but you just don't have the time to fit in exercise to your busy schedule. I’m sorry, (and I don’t mean to be cruel when I say this) but from my interpretation of what you have written you have made excuses. You stated "I think I deserve to sit down and relax for an hour in my day, I really dont want to spend it exercising".
All those reasons you listed are important factors in your life- yes you have responsibilities - your little boy, your hubby, your job and keeping house. However, you need to look deeply within yourself as to why you want to lose the weight. We all know that watching the amount of food we eat is not enough to win the battle of the bulge. We need to include exercise but you don't have to go gun ho about it, at least 3 times a week of light to moderate exercise.
Yes, you do deserve some sit down time after your busy day, but then again don’t you owe it to yourself to get your body moving at least 3 times a week. You can exercise Saturday and Sunday when you don’t have as gruelling schedule as during the week and you can take one night during the week to go for a walk or whatever form of exercise you choose to do just for half an hour and then spend that rest of the evening relaxing.
Alternatively you can get up half an hour earlier in the morning and go for a half hour walk which will bring you in pare to your daily schedule. If you feel uncomfortable leaving your child alone, why not do exercise at home, a work out DVD or jumping rope.
You have to look deeply within yourself as to why you are making excuses and justifying things in your head. Do you think that this is a barrier you have to explore, as it may be one of the reasons why you can never get past the 5kg mark?
Sometimes, you have to be a little selfish and say I deserve some “me” time and take that time to nurture and love your body and treat it with respect because at the end of the day no amount of excuses will shift that weight. Yes it’s hard work, yes it takes time, yes there are pit falls when times are hard and all you want to do is turn back to your old way of life. Yes it takes time to adapt to new way of life with some sacrifices but at the end of the day it will be worth it, when you can proudly say I did it.
I hope this helps you, I hope you read back on your posts and see that all it is, is a loss of motivation. Once you get your mojo back you’ll want to propel yourself forward to success.
Once again, I do apologise if I am being too upfront, I don’t mean to say this with any ill feeling or malice involved. Because I know that I would appreciate it if someone told it to my like it was,
I guess the reason I replied to your post was because last night I had coffee with a girlfriend who was feeling sorry for herself. She kept going on and on about how she didn’t have this and that and how everyone else had it, and how those people wouldn’t have it if it wasn’t for this or that. I had to stop her and tell her that it’s not going to improve her situation whinging about it instead she has to go out there face it and do something about it. It got me thinking about myself and how I self sabotage, make excuses and so forth. But not any more. I know what I want, I want it so bad, I am going to work to get it, and I will have it. It’s about having faith that you do deserve it and you can attain it.
Sorry for the long rant