It is currently Wed Mar 29, 2017 8:18 pm
modernchild wrote:I joined last night, poured my heart out (well not completely) and i was surprised that i felt somewhat better.
This is my ramblings...sorry to those who have read it before..
i am overweight, i know i am but at times i just don't see it.
IF i look in the mirror it is from afar and i don't linger looking its a quick look and then i'm gone.
We have built in wardrobes in our bedroom with sliding mirrored doors, i push the door closest to me away so i can not see myself.
I don't go out much, i hate social gatherings as i know people are commenting on my size.
i cut out all tags on my clothes so no one sees what size i take.
i don't have photos taken and if there is a photo of me i can't bear to look at it.
I eat in secret, mostly when my husband goes to bed so he sees nothing.
I know what i weigh and it horrifies me but i think to myself 'well at least its not xxx' which is 10kgs heavier.
I can't even in here write down what i weigh-i am ashamed.
So that was last night...
Then this morning i got up and had to go to the hardware store which is 2kms away....AND I WALKED THERE!
I got my 2yr old put him in the pram, grabbed my mp3 and off we went.
I was buggered by the time we got back but i did it!!
Then for lunch i made some salad lavish-yum...so different to say hot chips.
Is it possible my journey has started??
modernchild wrote:Well i have made the decision to calorie count and have got the 'Fats and Figures' books back out!
Now actually writing a weekly menu and only buying what i need.
My only big hurdle (only-i think there is more than one!!LOL i'll do this one first!) is sugar- i find that if i deprive myself i'm more likely to binge on it.....any suggestions?
I don't eat heaps of it but i do like a treat every now and then.
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