This year I will do it.
I will challenge why I have wasted so much time and emotional energy thinking about what I should or shouldnt eat, feeling bad about it, then putting on another kg, again.
I will do what is important to me.
I will define me.
So this year I am.
I still think of myself as normal weight until I start puffing walking up stairs, see a photo of myself or feel my joints are cramping up. I used to think, "I can't believe a person would let themself go like that!" and now I'm heavier than the people I used to look at!
about 1979 I weighed 56kg and felt physically great and my younger (I now realise jealous) sister said - "Are you anorexic?"
I have been putting on weight for 29 years and yet it is a shock to me, I never dreamed this would happen to me. Slowly it crept up on me, like the cat upon the mouse ... 20 years ago I was in pretty good shape although the pattern of weight gain each year was set. why? oh why?
Some people think that people who are overweight are lazy and unmotivated. That definitely does not describe me. Physically I'm not fit. But I have so much motivation, I will at the drop of a hat drive 15km for a nice Chinese takeaway. I race around a lot so I can easy eat 8500- 9000 kJ and still lose weight, without an exercise program, that is just normal living.
I do owe a debt to all the fantastic people on this forum. You make me feel positive, cared about and you give such good advice and information. Thanks to You, I really do feel empowered.
Now if I can just get my act together ------ I am