I suppose I will start at the start...
I have always had a struggle with weight, I was never the biggest kid in school, but I was nearly always chubby and never happy with myself. I gained a lot of weight in my early teens, then lost a lot when I was 15 and got down to a size 10 - 12, I was never really healthy though, and was on the verge of an eating disorder. Since then I haven't had a healthy relationship with food. Even though I was in the healthy weight range, I felt huge and never good enough. I look back at photos of myself from then and think I must have been mad - I looked great! I gained weight once again, when I finished my VCE and have been up and down ever since. Last year was where I reached my lowest point and highest weight, I broke my ankle in January 2007 and was not able to walk properly until Janurary of this year. I gained 20kg in less than a year! I had not thought it was that much, it wasn't all that obvious to me as I had barely left the house and lived in PJs and trackie dacks - don't get me wrong, I knew I had gained weight, but to find out it was 20kg was devastating. I was angry, not only had my injury cost me my job, my social life, my plans...it had changed my body forever, those stretch marks will never go away and I had a tough road ahead of me to lose the weight. But I know I can't blame anything or anyone for all of the weight gain, a fraction of it maybe, but in the end I was the one who ate and drank in an unhealthy manner...
Anyway, things have changed for the better! I am now actually eating and losing weight - which I never thought was possible! I have a much healthier relationship with food and feel confident that I can continue to do this. My partner is wonderful and supportive and has helped me through those dark times and let me know he loves me no matter what size I am, he just wants me to be happy. He is so encouraging and tells me almost everyday how much he can see my weightloss - he calls me his "shrinking honey". I now no longer want to be 'skinny', I want to look like a woman - not a 12 year old boy! Give me curvy and sexy anyday. My aim is now to be healthy and happy. I have been on this forum for almost three months now, and have lost over 8kg since joining (and being educated via Calorie King - lifesaver!) and I am down 14.6kg from my highest weight.
This forum is a wonderful place, and I don't know if I could do this without it! Thanks everybody!
Glad you have started up a progress thread and shared your story.
it's you hon that's here getting healthy and as thankful as we all are for wonderful support, ultimately its you that has to do it... sooo good on you, your doing great 