OMG - just wrote a whole big story about the last couple of days and hit the wrong button. ARGH!!! Lets start again shall we.
I have stopped doing the cs program and have signed myself up on the Calorie King website. Loving the simplicity of typing in the food I am going to eat and having the computer do all the calculations for me - AWESOME! I like not having to think about things like that. I am surprised
by the amount of food I am able to have, and am totally loving having my soy-lin toast for breakfast - YAY! Had a delicious spicy bean and lentil soup (another cs no-no) for lunch and feel lovely and satisfied. Gotta love the no-think diet... oops, sorry - lifestyle change!
I am still really motivated with my exercise, which has helped me from putting on after my binges whilst pretending I was on cs. I was Jeckyl and Hyde, devout cs follow during the day, but under the cover of darkness consuming too much food for dinner followed by whatever other goodies I could lay my hands on. Luckily I was still exercising, which I think has helped a lot. I am half way through my 30 day fitness challenge (Wii Active personal trainer) and have actually changed my workouts from moderate intensity to hard. OMG - the jump squats nearly killed me yesterday - I may need to buy a defibrilator just in case!
I ate well yesterday, I was not hungry at all. Then IT happened! I was lying in bed reading my romance novels (ANOTHER of my guilty little secrets! lol) when I decided that a few Maltesers would be great... Anyhoo, one fundraiser sized box later...
I did decide not to beat myself up about it though, as usually this just leads to more bingeing. I look like a pac-man racing around the house, shoving everything I can find in my mouth... not my husband though (thats another story - lol!) Who knows, maybe 100,000 jump squats will burn those buggers off! The upside is there are only two fundraiser boxes left in the house. I know I should do the right thing and dispose of them thoughtfully... only time will tell.
So there you go...
Mel (wow, blogging really is good for the soul!)