hi all im back
im sorry to all those who have supported me over my time here, i shouldnt have lost it like i feel i did and run away and hide. i Just honestly lost the plot. looking back it was a comination of things: main one being - I have had a few women come into work with bad attitudes telling me i shouldnt be training them to get fit when im so big myself, and it put me in a really bad place, i felt like telling them to take their scrawny boney asses and go to another gym (if i owned the gym i would have
) but instead i was polite and proffessional and told them that i was the fitness instructor on duty and if you arent happy with the workout come in and use a different time/different instructor. In the end they went above me, above the owner of my franchise to HQ of australia and complained basically that ¨it isnt suitable to have an Obese woman working as a fitness instructor, what qualifications and encouragement does that give women.blah blah blah¨
I was more pissed wit the fact that when they did train with me their fitness levels were pathetic and they couldnt keep up with me yet they are the ones that complain i am to ¨fat and unfit¨ (yes that was in their email) to look after the clients needs!!!
SO YES I HAD A BAD TIME, I had HQ send a guy out to monitor me and suprise suprise there is nothing wrong with my training abilities. I know i shouldnt let people like that get to me but I was pissed, i was misserable and i wanted to crawl under a rock and die.
On lighter news I celebrated my 2 yr wedding anniversary last nightand not in a good way KFC bucket, and Choc mud cake, washed down with Pepsi... Yes i know it was wrong, Yes i know it was all Dead calories and nothing of nutritional goodness whatso ever and yes i felt bad as i had actually eaten really well during the day haveing fruit and vege and lean chicken oh and LOving the New BAKERS DELIGHT Chia bread... yummy!!!!But still i only had 2 slices.... But yeah i know i did wrong and gosh did i feel it last night i layed on the couch feeling sick and disgusting and woke up with a sugar/fat hangover i feel rotten still and its 4pm!!!!!
ANyways i will try and be a good girl and not chuck a wobbly and what not. My weight jumped up to 128kg but it was TTOTM and was down to 126.4 again yesterday, so hopefully i can hift something again soon so i dont get to discouraged i just have no motivation for myself after dishing it out to everyone else
How do PTś do it?????
thanks everyone for kind kind words and i will talk again soon, you know me i like to ramble on and on on here as i have no one to talk to in real life!