There has been a lot go on in the past couple of months, and I fell off the band wagon, but I am back on as of today. I have done a lot of soul searching and realised that there is more to my life than what I have experienced.
My whole family is made up of larger people - everyone except for my mother. My mother is a heavy smoker and an alcoholic. I guess I was so determined not to become my mother that I hid behind my weight. From this day forward I forgive her for all she has done in the past to hurt me, and I am moving on. I am not going to dwell on my past, and I am going to move forward with my life. This is the beginning of an improved Jaimie.
I also find it hard, because I have no close friends here in Darwin. I moved her 2 years ago to be with my fiance, and have been immersed in work and our life together, and havent had a chance to make a close friend here. I really need some support other than Andrew.
I have a beautiful fiance who loves me so much... but I want to be a smaller, skinnier version of myself standing beside him on my wedding day.
I am getting married on 31 December 2010, 3 days before my 22nd birthday. I am buying a wedding dress in 2 weeks, but my fiance said if i can loose the weight then he is more than happy to buy me 10 new wedding dresses if it makes me happy.
So here is to a new day...